wHeRe nOnSenSe MeeTs sUbsTance

thank you.

2008-06-05T03:13:00.003+08:00

finally , i avenged myself for sem1. some satisfaction. makes me believe the notion that hardwork brings results. thank you everyone who has supported me during my stressed-out periods. too many to be named but still i owe alot to my k family. i will continue fighting for my ambitions and screw you complacency,don't come near me.

but astro is a threat now, my coursework is kinda bad. gotta pia! 5 more days!

however, parents are coming down.. so.....hahaha..family time 1st.

-it's not the end,we've only just begun-
jiayou for the better, ppl!
one love ya'all
deh kamsahamida.

kiwanaboy writes.

2008-06-04T03:29:00.002+08:00

hello world, muahaha, yes it's true, it's me eric blogging again , secretly. well, i'm a grown up now. there's no need for me to oblige myself to blog periodically. i write whenever i wanna write.
life,
sem2 was a breeze, haha but i ain't sure about the results. lots have happened. friendships, sisterhood, misunderstandings, patching up, reunions, stress, acne-session, recurring and ongoing scalp infections, vday celebration, miscommunications, birthday celebrations, sucky accounting project,my new born nephew...these have shaped a newer part of me .
perhaps , i can summarise my sem 2 with this word: mood-swing.
aihz, this sem , i have been very reflective yet a big fat hypocrite. when i reflective, i tend to keep things to myself, show that natural black face of mine when im feeling perfectly fine inside. ppl , they call me emo-king when i emo, joker when i joke or talk rubbish , malay/gay when i do nothing at all. haha pay attention to that last line k. ahh.. such titles are no more than injection of humour into ppl's lives. i'm okay with it seriously. having no ego to begin with , such things i can tag along.as long as i know that deep down? I DON't WRONG anyone.

ppl say , hey eric, aren't u thinking too deep? aren't you taking this/that too seriously? heh, i can't answer these questions directly. well, FYI , recently , i've been talking to one of my dear friends, a very nice buddy, about this ...i realise, i do have a different side of me.. yupp. extrovert 100% and introvert also 100%. strange? nah, its who are around me at that point of time. i see that , when there are like one /two people, i immediately switch to a more serious side of me.. but when my k family members(most of the time) appear .. i will just zi high and become the silly stupid fool that everybody laughs at..oh btw, that's just a light hearted note. this is smth , i'm not sure to be scared of or just something i need to take note of , and try my utmost best to regulate and achieve this balance within me.

i shall bury the emo me , i don't emo for attention.. i just wanna regain back the happy go lucky me. no stress and let's just go with the flow .

i wanna be myself. a true blue simple guy . so what if i have no fashion sense? haha, well, actually i had none to begin with , truly those who have seen me in my clothes.. u can tell it for urself..indecent,uncle-like you name it.. ahahaha BUT ...be thankful, im not donning the emperor's new clothes. =P i'm comfortable w what i wear and nothing else matters.

it's raining now, freaking 3.43am. oooh i'm so loving it.. can feel my body breaking down slowwwwwly

ahh , b4 i forget lemme share a story of mine.. it's entitled 'the 44th minute of every hour''

these past 2 months, i have been NOTICING , observing the 44th minute on almost everytime
i glance upon time, be it watch , computer, chatting windows... GAWD.. i'm UBER paranoid abt this.. 1st thing that comes to my mind.. IS....not death. more of my gpa results.. lol.. haha kk on a serious note.. it is just a bad feeling ba.. come on, 44th minute leh .. SIAO eh .. one said, why are you so kancheong? dun look at the clock that often.

IT"S A HABIT. sien.. thing is i think my mind is SUBCONCIOUSLY counting the minutes away , and when it's abt to be the 44th minute, a quick impulse is sent from the brain to my neurons and right to my eyeballs, bringing about nothing but misery to my emotions. WHY god why ? is this a sign? haha a gpa of 4.4? hahaha that i don't mind. talking abt results its just hours away.. eh heck. i really have nth to say abt this sem. i just pray no Cs at all ... a b would do. just pull my cgpa to 4plus and i'll be happy.

i wanna enjoy life. i wanna regain some joy and happiness. the people ard me, they're great. nuff said.you guys know yourselves, dunno whether you'll be reading this , but then again , i thank you so much for the supports and love that u have showered me.

i'm blessed and i'm grateful for that. i don't really know when i'll be blogging again . but please god, protect and guide the ones who i care , love, cherish and am committed to. baby chris, when u grow older , i'll make sure u will have the best times of your life with great uncle eric around. i love you so much.

one love ya'all.
kamsahamida.

recomposure.

2007-11-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

hello life,
yet again , another blue-ey day for me. just gotten back my written assignment with a b- grade and b+ for my overall course component for accountings. *sobs*
well, this is life, u put in effort and SOMETIMEs, the results are just ain't proportional.
none the less, i have gone thru much more shit in NJ .. so whats this huh.. haha no excuses to be idling away for these setbacks.. hell no. what gave me the assurance? my parents.
mummy don't seemed worried at all. so i have no rights to be depressed either.
daddy's constantly pushing me on. NO parents = no eric. damn right . i loves me parents.
just cleaned my room as i had no mood to study .. oh i just finished doing some papers though... still facing difficulties for biz law and accounting.. its still a week away.. now the scarier part would be information technology. ah , this subject is really about luck lah .. whether you can think of the answers on the spot is the subject ryt now. anyways, i have set aside time for IT.

deep down , my hunger for excellence is still lurking somewhere .. tell me , who doesn't wanna do well. jiayou lah .. A+ for my final papers. haha .. at least it sets off the lousy half.. UPs lah ...UPs..

kuan yee , i have linked you ! thanks for the supports yah. must keep in touch . to my jiemeis , xiongdis..kamsahamida.

going to bathe now. prob enjoying a cup noodle with my neighbours later ..
'' datuk, dengarkan kata-kata cucu ya '' .
be with me .

i know that goodbye means nothing at all..

2007-11-03T02:48:00.000+08:00

hi world, my deepest apologies for not updating for nearly 3 months.. life in ntu is seriously damn busy. i strongly beg to differ to the fact where university life is fun. i can summarise my life in these few words, project tutorial deadlines, hallmate gatherings.. thats it. my simple life, yet time flies. there are definitely more pleasant memories to jot down in this blog.. but i've lost touched with my blog .. to all who tagged.. sorry for not replying yah.

it's 2.53am now ,
i feel abit emotional. ever wonder how a person's inner thoughts can be triggered with just one piece of photograph? just surfed up on somebody that was once or maybe not, IS still dearly to me . bittersweet memories just crop up out of nowhere and poof* here i am , not being able to sleep just thinking about what i have done and we've shared together. listening to this song '' SHE WILL BE LOVED'' by maroon 5 , really brings me back to our time..it's been 4 years ..
somehow i cannot explain for my regrettable actions and i understand that you cannot forgive me for all the pain i've put you through . if i'd told ya , it's a natural reaction, it will just not change anything ..

if only i could turn back time,
if only, i have said it out loud and clear.
if only, i could predict the outcome

if only..

i would like to apologise to you my friend. i feel lost sometimes when it comes to feelings.. the facade is definitely overwhelming. we met this year, i was glad to see you but i just felt awkward a lil bit to express it out. oh dear , we definitely can't restore our original positions . i just would wanna keep in touch with you again. you know, a simple hi, how are you ? any eye candies ? kinda convo. but i just don't have the courage to pick myself up again. perhaps it's just my own karma and i am willing to face the consequences. there are things that i still remember about you ..

this may sound hypocritical but i would wanna move on completely. Years have passed,it's still difficult. i am sure you'd have. (:

*sighs*

i hope that this feeling will be gone after my sleeeeeeep.

''a promise that has been broken , not to be forgotten nor forgiven. for i am guilty''

take care and all the best to those taking their a levels and having their uni exams in weeks time. i am grateful to have great companies by my side now. thank you god.

revival.

2007-08-18T10:33:00.001+08:00

gosh , past 2 days were just TOO relaxing for me. i was just mingling around with hallmates and left my tutorials aside. played badminton yesterday and yes , did i feel the joy of playing the game i love. somehow, whether you're good at something is one thing , whether you are having FUN with the right company is another thing. talents are meant to be shown but not to be bragged. talents are somehow meant to entertain. =)
tonyt and SUNDAY, i die die must ChiOng ah! no time to lose. sooon , i will be holding my new ' bao bei ' sony ericsson phone. then , i shall be actively smsing people again. to all of you who kept in touch with me via msn i would sincerely like to apologise for idling away cos i kept on forgetting to switch off my msn and just left my status away. perhaps now, when my status is away , i AM REALLY AWAY. so do take note. i simply can't cope with MOTOROLA ..it's super user unfriendly. no offence to those having mOTo phones yah. i had no choice . its my sis's phone.
so many things to be accomplished. i need to gear up for my 1st ever badminton competition [inter block games] muahaha.. and my first ever match will be a MIXED doubles match. MAIN objective? 2nd round only.. haha diane, we must JIA YOU!! better not laugh when i start communicating with u ah !! kelvin , candice , yong chin, qiyong .. let's make 53 proud. by not being last. =P

veron: hahaha, okays! i always print in school ba. 4cents oni .. if i can walk further away from my school , i can print for FREE.. hahaha... NTU ROX lah.. hehe.. alot of njcians here. ruth ling hui aso here leh.. =) .. got handsome boys in NUS anot..

SUF: mat.. hahaha, these factors can't highlight in blogs .. haha , catch up with u soon.
BEE: hmmm, where have u been? body NTU but mind in BEIJING alr ha! hahaha jk.
chua: taikor , ngo dei oi kan lek jorr.. hahaha..mou tak slack.. go go go . yat ding wui tai bourne ultimatum.

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida

affirmed.

2007-08-15T15:12:00.000+08:00

at one moment , i was thinking about my future. what is a balanced life anyways? must it be RECORDED? so , i called my brother who is in moscow right now.
listening to him is seriously 'value-adding'. his tone sets the atmosphere . the way he speaks is simply assertive.

the next thing that happpened to me:advice was given and assurance just flows into my soul. that's my brother. one and only. my siblings are my special and irreplacable ASSETS.i love you two.

let's see what happen next okay? uni life isn't as 'fun' as what i would have perceived. but i'm already used to it thanks to NJ. that's just a comment. no praise nor critic.

when i am not in the mood for that particular event[gathering, dinner, ...etc] , i won't be up for it and i would make it crystal clear to everyone. no explanation is needed for i owe none to anyone.perhaps i could be anti-social, perhaps i'd just ruin the atmosphere if i do attend that event, perhaps i am just lazy. sometimes ,we need to be alone. even crazy people. privacy is so precious but do we realise it properly?are we fully aware it?

momentum is on the go. god, let me experience the peak the moment i need it the most. so far, i have no qualms about any decision that i have made so far. they are the right ones and it's a good sign.

reflection time:
FREEDOM is oNe ThiNg but too much freedom is reckless. something worth noting.
patience is virtue but too much patience is no good either.

sometimes ,we do things right but do we get the right results? we assumed them to be okay, but is it really okay? we can only experience and judge them for ourselves. others have their own opinions on issues but don't let comments affect your mind/behaviour for it is you who control your own life. friends are there to GUIDE not to determine our lives. stop dreaming and make plans for life including marriage. uni life is all about timing.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

oh no.

2007-08-11T00:43:00.001+08:00

i have just done 6 questions from ONE tutorial . and i totally can't answer the last one and partially for the 4th one. oh no .it took me 3 hours. referred to my senior but i am still blur. CONCEPTUAL errors have begun and are going to haunt me again.. just like the good old days in NJC. crap. tmr , revision!!! and biz law tutorial. chiong ah!!

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida

just my luck.

2007-08-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

have i told you this story about a boy who accidentally ruined his handphone?
one day , this boy went to his senior's room to play cards with his group of friends. naturally, this boy would place his belogings on the bed. as they were frantically engaged in a game of bridge, displaying the most lame yet entertaining drama to conspire with one and another , another group of senior gals came in and sat on the bed. after hours of fun, the boy realised that his handphone was gone while his other belongings remain intact on the bed. immediately , suspicions arose amongst the group of friends which was not how the boy intended to feel. ransacked the room and after 30 minutes , guess what? his phone was actually ACCIDENTALLY pushed into a pile of clothes which was then taken to the washing machine. for obvious reasons , the phone was given a hell of a spin with detergent. hey hey , spoilt yet clean. no sarcasm intended.

the boy just took it as it came . not having the feeling to even ask for compensation cos' he felt this was no one's fault. prob, it's just something that is destined to happen. another thing was, he couldn't tell who was at fault at pushing his phone to a pile of clothes. hmmx. this is a very rare case in one's life. so, the boy sent the phone for a check and was told that $400 dollars was needed to repair the phone.

-omigod-

that's another price for another friggin phone. where's the love. so , conclusion was the boy is definitely better off with another phone. i DEFINITELY feel for this boy.

today , i woke up early to spring clean my room , did my laundry and reorganised my stuff. i am proud of myself. :)
feeling so fresh , i went to my school to collect the matric card.THEN suddenly, when i reached my school's office, they said, PLEASE COLLECT YOUR CARD AT THE STUDENT SERVICE CENTRE.

-har?(sigh)-
i told them that i was already asked to come to this office to collect YESTERDAY and yet, they still insisted that i need to go back there . so i walked and walked and walked , sweating as if i was running under the hot sun and reached the SSC. i asked them , i was REDIRECTED back here and i would like to COLLECT my matric card. the gentleman then said oh your supposed to collect it from your DESIGNATED venue at this time to this time TODAY.

-HARRRRRRRRRRRRR-
that made sense. so i hurried and walked BACK to a venue in my school JUST TO FIND OUT THAT the venue was not even opened for collection. i was officially PISSED.
i walk back aLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way to the student centre again and explained the situation . so the admin went to have some discussion and after 15 minutes of waiting .. they told me.. ''hi , i am quite sorry but collection is UNAVAILABLE today because the officers are having a meeting.'' please come back again on MONDAY.

-waHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY-

so my hopes of using my matric card to apply for my student plan+ phone with my sister today was DASHED just like that. that was the turning point of the day. i am like ' see beh..buay song eh''
my school office shd have just directed me to the designated venue and not the student service centre. at least , i could have saved some effort. heeee... but no choice lah. this is also my fault. my fault for not chionging on wednesday. lesson learnt: be KAN CHEONG. don't procrastinate.

but none the less,
PATIENCE is virtue. BLAME NOBODY but yourself.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

updates from NTU

2007-08-09T10:26:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHN YEONG ..., GOoOOOOOOD morning everybody, you're tuning into 99.95 fm, the almost PerFect 100 radio station. this is MC heAH , ur dj for today. Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.. it's a very cooling morning .. let's not pray for any rain shall we? and let us enjoy this joyous occasion. Thank you singapore for giving me the opportunity to study here at a very young age.. i love you .. hahaha.. majulah singapura.

Let us do a RecAP on kiwana's Life for the past two weeks from his 1st day of orientation.being alone , i managed to make a LOT of NEW friends.. haha army boys aren't bad after all.. i was in the kXON family , the most LAME and EXAGGERATING family in HALL ELEVEN... somewhere i belong to.. haha.. the good thing about this orientation was that our seniors were very very hyped and there are not many ADMIN stuff during the orientation. so it was pure MINGLING betweeen freshies and seniors.. haha .. shan't described in detail all the activities i;ve been thru, cos with gr8 company , nothing else mattered.events that i will not forget would be the water captain's ball, SP sessions, ROTI PRATA session, GOGGLES UP session, and the fright night. blindfolding session during INITIATION period was something i will not forget for life.. haha.. SENIORS..i RESPECT you all ah .. respect.. thanks for smearing toothpaste on me , 'blackmailing me' , pouring 'snow' on me ..feeding the group with hot mushroom soup and chocolates in the middle of the night. KXON simply rox. next up: STEAMBOAT yah!! onlah.

oh yesh , btw , i would like to take the opportunity to apologise to those who msned me on last wednesday ...i had like 20 windows unattended cos i LEFT my com on unintentionally and went for a 2 day 1 night camp. those who cursed me .. hehehe.. ur forgiveness i seek, those who understand i appreciate.

lectures finally begin and it was my first ever 2 HOUR lecture with 5 mins break in between. wah.. the lecture slides are really HELPFUL.. haha.. this is already university, NO MORE spoonfeeding. my tutorial groupmates are nice and decent. =) truthfully, business school is really a good school lah.. u know why?! because there are so many people FROM MY JUNIOR COLLEGE... hOW WONDERFUL IS THAT!!! hahahaha..kk joke joke.. the main reason is because.. there are TOOOOO MANY prettty gals and hunks already.sometimes too much is bad for health.fashion sense is something undeniable.all are dressed to impress. i feel the pressure even b4 i started studying.my approach to this matter: go to giordano, buy all the assorted colours of polo tee and just assigned each colour to each day ,jeans will then be a constant. hahaha...nolah.. all i can say abt my course is that .. these people are the best of the best from my cohort.. so i gotta MUG hard to keep up with them already.

cleaning my room soon. gotta be an organised person before it's too late.
louis, thanks for the wish man. seriously appreciate it ! hope you doing all right too. we have to meet up soon yah.ALL THOSE WHO ARE ATTENDING UNIVERSITY NOW, you all dun be too distracted ah.. and all the best with the selection of electives.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

a brand new start.

2007-07-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO LIFE, what up what up, this is kiwana boy , typing from his very new room. aight, just checked in today and guess what.. i am seriously.. i am mean DEAD serious .. that i am the only one in my BLOCK!!!! and i stay at the top floor of my block. it's under renovation, but the toilets and bathroom are excellent..they are NEW!! yay!

thank god i have a direct canteen cos if there isn't any, you will just read tomorrow's news (HEADLINES) stating , ''boy , found dead crawling on his way to a nearby canteen''

i am little bit .. lonely. suddenly, i feel at peace yet, soliditary. oh no.
haha, it's time to find a girl. hehehe JOKES!. what am i saying.

oh another fantastic news. i bought a 2nd hand ipod. ordered yesterday and it arrived today. now, that's what i called efficiency. APPLE 'wan sui'!! unfortunately, it's at my bro's place now while its owner is like craving to have his hands on it. -meditates- ''perseverance''

tmr is my medical appointment. let's hope everything will be fine yah.
bathing quite soon.. aiks.. bathing alone in a 6-level block. one helluva experience.

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.

my last day in seremban.

2007-07-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

heLLo , needless to say .. for the past 8 months i have enjoyed myself like there is no tomorrow.. 3.5 months of work and 4.5 of slack and fun.. very balanced indeed.

yesterday's bowling was absolutely fantastic. nia seng , fake, liar and trickster ruled the bowling lane. we must meet up again!! =) **NEVA LAST!!

will be setting off for singapore at 0630hrs on wednesday. had some serious discussion with dad , mindset should be settling in quite soon. my targets have been set. let's accomplish them.

i LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE SEREMBAN. there's no place like home. enuff said.

to denise: esok i balik sayang. esok ye?! =) will sms ya.eh , i considering refurbished ipod leh. very very worth it.

one love ya'all
deh , kamsahamida.

FUN and JOY . no SORROW week! okay, got a lil sadness..

2007-07-22T21:21:00.000+08:00

hello life.
i have been so preoccupied last week till i almost abandoned this blog. haha, luckily , i am still able to spare some time to record down one of the best times of my life here.
well, last week [16th july to 21st july] was a very ''action-packed'' one. i've watched DIE HARD 4.0 and harry potter but UNFORTUNATELY at a price of RM 10.00 .. so EX!! *bleaghs*
storylines were okay lah, nothing much to be impressed about.. just that.. for die hard 4.0, john mcclane can just jump off from high lands... getting seriously injured.. and after a few minutes .. you could see him fighting or running as if he was totally unaffected.. *lol* truly DIE HARD...hard to die.. ahahaha.. i would have named that movie ... ''broken bones don't mean a thing 4.0'' .. harry potter received so many critics from the resources of ''eric heah's friends''. so i decided to catch it HERE in malaysia.. at least i can still feel good abt spending less for a criticisized movie. i watched it , and i felt it's quite good in terms of the effects but as usual , the gist was there but not in detailed especially the members of the order of the phoenix.. a lil more illustration of the team would have made it interesting .. the kissing scene was so...''innocent'' lah .. that's what i like to say ..they locked lips like forever.. i wonder how it feels like.. but i gotta to say that the mistletoe thingy was damn lame.. this movie shd be renamed as ''harry potter : RAGING hormones'' ah ..notice the word raging? yes .. it describes not only the puppy love instincts but also .. the prominent bad temper of harry potter. i loove it.

on wednesday , randy and i took a direct bus to GENTING HIGHLANDs.. finally, true entertainment. yay! we met up with my childhood friend, ah girl a.k.a MACY together with her younger siblings.. and on the next day , we tried out rides and games in the theme park. Personally, i have sat almost everything in the theme park but time and time again , they don't bore me because of the different companies i'm with .. oh , this time, i tried the flying coaster.. oh my god .. it's personal favourite.. it's just a ride where u lie vertically and literally FLY around the track, taking sharp corners, turning 360 degrees TWICE in a row..going up and down .. the fun thing about this ride was that, there's no time for you to hesistate , it's just all in ONE go, so the feeling is complete.. i flew so fast that my specs (had loose grips) almost flew out from my face..thank god that did not happen.. later on , i brought my company for a few rounds of bumper car.. THAT is like the MAIN CORE of the indoor theme park.. just to bang people gives me maximum satisfaction .. the way we coordinated each other to bully our 'victim' ...how we laughed on how silly we were, trying our very best to maneovure our car in a way to bang our targets..the conspiracy.. the backstab... hahaha.. in this game.. the memories are priceless.. =)
i looooove genting!

on saturday , went to play badminton, this time , i think i found my best form in terms of smashing the shuttlecock at a very high speed.. despite losing all the matches , i felt i made great critical shots which i have not seen for ages.. haha , the only thing standing in my way right now..those flabs and big thighs.. my fitness totally sucks .. must have been the effects of pork..
damn...at night , we went to play DOTA...and our gaming session lasted till 4.00am in the morning.. wow , we were so engrossed that we would just forget time. haha for once.. i finally understood why people can waste so much money on this ADDICTIVE game. got home around 4.30 am .. haha immediately threw myself to the my lovely bed and slept like a log..
after 5 hours, i woke up again and rushed out to meet the same gang (last night) for a game of FUTSAL.. hahaha.. this is what i call...action packed...they're one heck of a gang.. a gang of fun-loving people. i looooove my peeps.

i've also checked my hostel allocation.. and to my dismay.. i got hall ELEVEN..which is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOODAMNITOOOO damn far from my faculty.. i surveyed my friends who are staying in the hostel and attending the same faculty as me.. 3/4 have gotten the nearest hall... NOOOOOOOOOOOOHOWCAN??OOOO...yah.. well, what can i say or do? the allocation is RANDOM and LUCK is not on my side... that's one mini spoiler for the week.. but heck.. i know i'm not the only one who is experiencing this. and what's more important, is to ace my studies.. i don't loooooooove the allocation.

tomorrow , there's bowling.. oooooh yeah! fUN fUn and MORE FUN..

one love ya'all
deh kamsahamida.

burnt-out

2007-07-15T12:04:00.000+08:00

my saturday started off at 11.40 am ... whoops .. hahaha..what a pig . haha, went out to meet my friends[willyson, yap , james, edward ,seng hong ,kin wai, ting poh,andy , yuh jye] for lunch at pizza hut in JUSCO and when we decided to watch 'die hard 4.0' , the queue was freaking long and it was already selling fast ..damn it . this movie has been out for more than a week.. and it's still selling fast.. amazing .. unlike harry potter.. muahaha.. let's not even talk abt that show.. haha .. i shall just wait for the day to watch it at RM6! .. perhaps then , my critics abt that movie WOULD be good.

feeling hopeless , we planned to play golf at a driving range, where we just tee the golf balls.. that's all. and it was absolutely fun learning the game though i DISLIKE the REAL game. instead of hitting the ball, i started off by hitting the ground more often that my arm hurt due to ''unwanted'' impact.. haha , hitting the golf ball isn't really easy. it's about your hips and shoulder power.. haha but at the end .. i managed to swing some away beautifully.. probably it was just luck. most of the time , our golf session was filled laughters and teasings lah .. especially when the newbies like me can't hit the ball despite the beautiful swinging gesture . that's what we call
'' got style but no substance''. muahaha

later on , i drove home and joined a full-court 5v5 basketball match in my neighbourhood. we played 3 matches altogether and boy, did i feel ''20 year old'' ?my teammates were like 23/24 but we've played together since 7 years back , so communication and chemistry wise : we still have it. pitching my speed and skills against the youngsters [16/17] was really eye opening to me... i am getting old.. buT still .. thanks to my experiences i managed to directly block nice shots.. hahaha .. that's where i can still take pride in .. =) we lost two but eventually we won the last match with a one point margin.

haha, immediately rushed home , bathed and droved out again to a sports facility to play futsal with the same gang who played golf again .. haha , again , it was a 5v5 match , everyone except for me was very agile and skilled in passing and shooting the ball... a very thrilling yet tiring match that was .. we later on proceeded to ting poh's house to celebrate belated birthdays for willyson and jian ee.. haha .. thank god his parents were not at home .. as usual , we were so boisterous especially during the singing of the birthday song session , in 4 diff languages .. ahahha.. the funny thing was, we clapped so much till we got so high ... so high that we went near the cake , clapped and indirectly blew off the candle for the birthday boys.. hahaha .. we all laughed like there was no tomorrow..for me, i laughed till my stomach ached. =P .. cutting of the cake session , wasn't a real cutting session either, we just took spoons and some used their hands and gleefully helped ourselves ..hahahhahaa... CIVILISED we were at that time.. we scooped and digged the choc cake like we have not eaten for days or we have not seen a cake before..

cleaned up .. and we chatted a lil while more about our lives .. keeping in touch with them has really made my day .. going to miss them again when i go back to singapore.. =)
to those going back to their unis today , have a safe trip... you guys rock !

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

it's a sign.

2007-07-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

what happens when you meet something and POOF. the desire to own it just appears right in front of your mind. that's what i call ... ''OH MY GOD i want it.''

what happens when you see things you can buy alongside with your desired item; accessories that will further enhance the appearance and performance of your obsession.
'' oh my god , I MUST HAVE IT!''

what happens when you are able to engrave a very personal yet hip /memorable message on your precious treasure?

'' oh my god. i NEED IT''

what happens when an ENGRAVED , ENHANCED, EQUIPPED but EXPENSIVE material and what's best.. it's so ERIC .. just within your reach but with financial obstacles?

'' DAMN it.. for that 5E item.. GOD, let me strike a LOTTERY!!!''

ipod nano. something worth while.
p/s: let's put that unfortunate incident of that boy getting striked by that lightning via his IPOD aside and pray that this would never happen to anyone anymore.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

a string of joyous occasions.

2007-07-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

mabuhay! which means Hello in tagalog, phillipines' national language. :)
life is seriously great and even i didn't plan anything for my 1st overseas trip, i was already exposed to a TOTALLY different culture ; which was good enough.
the only similarity? we have black hair . that's it. filipinos naturally exude their friendliness regardless of skin colour and they extend their hospitality as if we are their relatives. HOWEVER, i wouldn't agree much when it comes to the road. No offence, but the traffic flow was totally terrible. a 3 lane would appear as a 5 and buses and taxis would just slip in the smallest gap they can find just to get ahead in the traffic. what's worse; no signals were given too and if you are near the windows of a vehicle, you can just observe other cars' head or bumper 3 cm away from you . how scary can that be.. what's suprising: nobody scolds anyone on the road despite their dangerous moves.. haha , that is WHAT i call .. CULTURE and ''friendliness'' on the road. because everybody does so.

apart from that, phillipines is definitely a great place to visit when we have a chance. unfortunately , my trip was rather a 'rushed' one as there were many preparations for the wedding . i was the BEST man in the wedding .. haha , and what's 'nice' that i was only informed the night before that i have to give a speech for the wedding .. in a form of a toast . OH NO.. haha , the panicked-feeling just sinks in and i immediately drafted my points on palm-sized notepads..

on the wedding day , i donned the 'barong' , the national costume which is interestingly made out of pineapple fibre.. a very COOLING shirt i have to say , and we attended to church wedding and later proceeded for a wedding lunch. haha.. food was just great and i just embraced myself for my speech.. just introduced myself, made a fool of myself as usual when it came to the speech but thankfully, people there were able to laugh at my speech and i gladly finished my speech with a traditional chinese 'YAM SENG!' . CHEERS! my bro's wedding is ONE event i will never forget in life.. i made myself clear in my speech: that i am looking forward to being an uncle VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY soon. haha yay!

after my wedding , i met up with my friend , one of my best buddies i have in life, ALLEN HUANG.. haha , a pure joker , someone whom i have met 4 years back and our friendship still holds strong as ever, went to a mall with him, treated to a very very DELICIOUS dinnner: bone marrow soup, grilled giant squid and the most DELICIOUS one of them all, ''sizzling sisig'' which was mainly deep fried parts of the pig which included ears ,intestines, skin with egg! yummy.. and the food was drowned down to my tummy with a RIPED MANGO SHAKE.. '' so good i would like lick the whole glass '' ...which i didn't lah hor...

07.07.07 was also my 'wife's b'day . happy bday wife. hahaha. although you have someone else in your life , you know i never gonna leave your side.oh yes, i would like to take this opportunity to wish a super uber belated HAPPY birthday to my junior , LOW JUN HOW. though we hardly exchange words, well at least i remembered.. haha...told denise that i msned u on ur bday but didn't know whether u receive anot. =)

touched down in singapore on 8th of july and met up with my 'niece'. it was seriously refreshing to hang out again in singapore .. haha , we went to have lunch at subway near her ''police station'' LOL .. okay okay , her college.. well, ordering the veggie lover would be something i would dread eating .. haha NO!!! cannot lah! she definitely enjoys it .. and what put me down to the ground even more was she said .. she would enjoy a FOOT long of veggie lover.. YEEEE... How Can?!!

''i live to eat(meat) not the otherwise'' .

we went hunting for the best deals for my MP3 and camera.. haha, it was definitely an unforgettable memory asking the prices for the same models of both items from different shops in the same building(sim lim square) which are located close to each other and EVENTUALLY not buying them.. haha , there were honest dealers , desperate dealers and even arrogant ones. haha . we later then WALKED to funan it mall and finally settled down at this very shop to get my CASIO exilim !! yay! finally i found a digicam for myself; my 1st official item after working so hard and saving so much money. value for money. thank you niece!

the next day , i continued my search for my mp3 player, ahaha, it was tiring , not because of the walking around, but much more towards the ''pondering' process because i was in a dilemma between a 4gb ipod NANO or a 4gB sony 'LIPSTICK' .. both had their pros and cons... sony was cheaper by 60 dollars..and had a tuner FM.. where else .. ipod gives me more assurance because of their credibility as a PRODUCT.FOR SURE, i have to invest more for my nano, like buying a charger and casing . on the other hand , sony does not need anymore accessories.. FROM this view, it is obvious that sony is the ONE worth my money right, but a small part of me wants the NANO. ARGH.! one dealer told me to wait for the APPLE promo which will be in one month's time in conjunction to NATIONAL day (singapore) . niece, let's keep our fingers crossed k? :)

met up with my junior ! JUNIOR! haha , luckily we met up for sushi buffet yah.. KITSUNE UDON. hahha bean curd! shared so MANY stories with ya .. haha , well i am still waiting for my TREAT. plus , you promised me already , ONE dAY! ..that still counts.we chatted about our lives and yes junior, i WILL try to find one k . haha , i NOT BUAYA okay?! :P

right now , i'm geared up for anything. no regrets and remain steadfast is my motto. i went driving , and i just speed whenever i had the chance to, ah chua was pleased to see me improve. haha i guess the traffic in MANILA taught me something.

my next aims: HARRY POTTER and ORDER OF THE PHOENIX ( malaysia)
THE SIMPSONS(singapore)
HALL ORIENTATION (30th july)
GENTING TRIP (on ah!)

to my pimp, congrats for retaining it , i knew you would do it , hope u recorded ur best time for nationals . those who got attached, i congralute you. =) . those who are feeling PHYSICALLY heavy , LET's lose weight [DETOX!] those who are feeling down , always remember that there are different directions in life, LEFT, right and especially UP!! (okays that's lame)
those who are feeling high , just be sure it's the healthy one , and with NOT the ''good shit'' k.those in doubt when it comes to decision , CONSULT ONLY 2 parties : YOUR BEST FRIEND(s) and PARENTS. hahaha

one love ya 'all
deh, kamsahamida.

my first flight out

2007-07-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

''prepare for take-off.''
my first ever flight ! yay! i can't wait for it. finally i'm really going OVERSEAS now. muahaha.
and what's better , it's for my bro's wedding. i've browsed through his wedding albums. and i ended up speechless. why?

ever since i interacted with my brother, alvin , he always reminds me of how handsome he is and i should be proud of it . i just laughed about it and always acted blur on that issue.haha , well , you know , the eldest is always correct in my family and he is still confident about it till this very day. and when i looked at his photos.. i was really stunned .. he has that charismatic look of a 'soon to be FILTHY rich man'. respect to my brother, and when i saw him taking couple shots with my sis-in-law. it was like ''celebrities for a day '' photo session. the picturesque surrounding made them look super romantic.. ah.. when will it be MY TURN!?

CONGRALUTIONS kor, one helluva pretty caring wife u have now. just can't wait to be an UNCLE now. i love you.

manila here i come.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

one helluva week.

2007-07-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

ahn yeong !

reached singapore on tuesday and the moment i reached my bro's place , i immediately rushed to my sis com and started surfing the speedy internet.. it was just like refreshing cold water quenching my parched throat.. like the saying goes, there's no place like home. muahaha.

went thru my uni package.. there were so many flyers on various activities but UNFORTUNATELY nothing interests me.. that's sad.. for a very crazy person like me .. it's actually rare for me to feel this way .. *sighs* thankfully, i still have my hall orientation for me to attend to. yesh~ gonna meet all sorts of people .. hopefully i get to meet some ang mohs.. and korean and japanese ..and swedish..and swiss..and some aussie.. and the list goes on...

let's KISS shall we?
keep it short n simple.

keywords for my pastweek were:
eCONOmIc RICe.YoUtuBe.DaNgYunHaJi.Chaeyeon.mushy.casanova.CARL's JUNIOR [DOUBLE BACON cHEESEburGEr which was like super Yummy].DAYTONA and SPOTTING the differences..kObAYasHi. NUS!!!!.YOUTUBE.CRUNCHYROLL.naRUTo shiPPuuDen.bleaCh.NTU DECLARATION FORM. NOnsTOp4.SALARY DELAYED by TWo MONTHs.CLARKE QUAY . niece! our 'm'sian' waiter.HAAGEN daz[RUM n RAISIN]. BOYs of s19. sisters.one night in BEIJING. japanese cosPLAY. careers and courses. 2nd row for TrANSformERs--''hurry put the cube into my chest and DISGUSTING''.neck pain, eye pain. it's just a movie of lump of metal clanking ..hehehe.BUTTERFLY buns . KOREAN juMBO hotDOG. BARLEY 99cents. ping PONG. and my newest collection: MAHJONG -PONG and EAT! JUNIOR! SaLARY pAID[god bless you]. 15 pretty gals in 10 minutes in orchard road. OHHH...my eyes..

without a doubt ,life has been very been nice for the past week looking at how much things.. nothing but happiness..talked to my lovely junior and was wishing her all the very best for her tests..hehe..out of the sudden .. i told her..i was scared to fall in love.. then she say ..never try means never know.. a simple line that just kills me . well, it's not that i never try... it's just that i have a strong feeling.. i am not fit to be in one in the 1st place. inferiority kills. haha.. my scenario.. no need to try , i already know. haha, that's just a random piece of my mind.

yesh, my life as an accountant has already been set. my future goals now:
1) to ''struggle'' for my 1st class honours
2) to participate in a business competition
3) to break free from the boring and stressful working lifestyle. i shall redefine it!
4) to earn LOTS of money
5) to buy a TOYOTA WISH. yes! i must get it.
6) to paste POSTERS of my idolS when i get into my hall. ----abit out of pt.well, accountants need INSPIRATIOns!

i have been saving up from my 3.5 months of work .. and yet, i stilll have not rewarded myself with anything that is meaningful, most of the time, $$ was spent on food , arcade and food again. sighs.. now , uni life is just around the corner, my wishlist might seem irrelevant. i'm seriously thinking of setting aside those hard-earned savings for my hostel fees and daily expenses.. and i shall name it..''ERIC HEAH's ScHolaRshIp'' . *lol* i am sure that scholarship can only last for like 2 weeks.

my dark mind:
some people are just not committed . why must i waste my time on them?
some people are just irresponsible. why bother taking up the responsibilty in the 1st place?
some people are scared of karma. why still commit bad things ?
some people are just plastic. why must i still entertain you?
some people want to move on. why still ponder?
some people can't be helped. why do i bother?

i can help people but i can't help myself. what a state to be in.this is a major weakness in me since a very tender age. i help people without thinking twice. but at times, i myself get hurt at the very end. i always need a 'shocker' or a super downfall to create a turning point for myself. people say 'once bitten twice shy' . but it ain't working for me. i know the consequences but yet i'm doing much about it . ONLY after i experience the undesired repercussion of my ignorance, i will learn my mistake. why must i choose this path ? it's so natural for me to do so. writing about it now is easy but taking the 1st step to change is definitely hard. UNI. LIFE must be a well prepared path. no rooms for mistake. those feelings were in the past.. and i sure hope that my future would not be overshadowed again.. nor my happiness for now be only temporary.

next goal: a super antisocial MUGGER. chiong ah!!
haha, it seems more like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. people who know me would realise that too ,ryt? sometimes , venturing into your dark thoughts would make u think abit more..

one love ya'all
deh , kamsahamida.

just loving every moment.

2007-06-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

hey life, it's been a week since i blogged.. haha, things have been pretty routined.. hehe but i've accomplished some tasks over the week.. i've made a new pair of specs for myself, serviced two of my badminton racquets...watched NARUTO shippuuden and bleach to their latest episodes.. catched oceans 13 and fantastic 4...just way too nice lah ... haha ...i'm super elated on the fact that i'm really enjoying life rather than at the very last minutes before school starts.

HOWever , i'm pretty uptight about my CCA life in NTU [in the future] .. this time around , i am really going for something that i LIKE rather than discovering new genres like what i did for the past 4 years.. i'm very interested in badminton.. but to my dismay, i checked their website and it was displayed in a way , they only cater to ex-school players which goes to show they only want people for competitive category...NOOOOOODAMNITOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..for those like-minded[recreational] , you are advised to book a court ....wtf. that's bad.. haha craps lah..when i heard that , i just feel like slapping a very stucked-up kid until his mother doesn't recognise him yet thank me for my 'good' deed. i hope it's misinterpreted. i wanna join badminton!

will be heading back to singapore on tuesday. kinda excited..cos i will be living in a new environment all over again... rate conversion will settle in again.. calculative-ness will begin ...so many people i wanna meet...my class.. my juniors =] longing for sakae sushi !

driving these days have been perfect..hehe..somehow i love driving at night ...and times when it rains.. i feel so challenged..haha.. cos i would be looking out for motorcylists ..looking ahead..controlling my speed, changing gears ,looking at the side and rear mirrors ..all at the same time..nice.. too bad no car in singapore lah .. wasted..hehe!

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

HAPPY FATHER"S DAY

2007-06-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

first and foremost,
HAPPY FATHER's DAY! to my dad , the one and only in this world. you are so irreplacable. i wouldnt be who i am without you in terms of discipline and character. your sarcasms and your deep thoughts.. i 've inherited most of them and i learnt alot from you.

''you're my man . guardian . father. '' i love you.

well, today has been filled with resting and in the evening , i went out for a slow drive in town.. it was so freaking packed i roamed town for 45 minutes for a car park. crap, but i enjoyed the whole process never the less. bought me daddy a CHOCOLATE SUPRISE cake.. ummm.. a ''super rich in choc '' cake. took some video and photos of him and wished him on behalf my elder siblings. =]

i have gotten over my gloominess yesterday and living life per normal. been chatting with my old room mate shaun ...and boy , do we connect well, hahaha, he'll be going to NUS ..and many more of our friends are going there too.. boohoo... fine. why?! never mind , i am sure i can crash his place in no time .

wanna lose weight ah! but this uphill task seems so impossible with so many CHEAP yet delicious temptations everywhere. '' SOMEBODY SAVE MEEEEEE!!''

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.

i'm so gonna get you.

2007-06-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

i am feeling a mixture of disappointment and anger . somehow i cannot suppress the state of denial in me.i faced only 70% of reality. the other 30% still longs for you. maybe i'm too used to having you by my side.we've been together for a long time and attachment is kinda strong. you have put me under so much pressure and took me a rollercoaster life all this while. everybody i know has gotten theirs and i sincerely wish them happiness. perhaps i should have been awared of the situation long long time ago. damn it. why did i let you slip away from me ? envy is so not healthy but i really just wanna feel it for a moment.
it's so close yet so far. how am i suppose to deal with the future without you?thank god , my family is by my side. given my best but my best ain't good enough for you. why didn't you grant my wish ? i realised all my wrong doings and i shall not..no.MUST NOT repeat them anymore in the future. i'm so burning up for you the next time around. in a year's time , i will try to make you mine. just watch out. i'll change my lifestyle. be stronger. be determined. and prove you wrong for your actions against me. there's a part in me which strongly believes that i don't deserve you . totally. i am accepting it. anyways,i should be grateful to be healthy and alive right now at this very moment. forgive me and i shall turn over a new leaf.

uni life is about to start. let's make the next 3 years, the most important phase in my life , a fruitful and memorable one. sometimes, life would be more meaningful without you. i realised that there are more things to life than only you. aid will be on the way. god, be with me.

one love ya'all.
deh, kamsahamida.

another greeting!

2007-06-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEOH HUI LIN!!!
one year OLDER , another year prettier ah.. haha.. see the words ..OLDER? i meant the litera...eh nolah.. it's the obvious..what i was trying to say is that you are getting more matured. haha, okays, as usual.. hope you had a great time with your 3 BFs [best friends, buddhist fellowship, BOYFRIEND]..tsk tsk ..so promiscous.. really hope the meditation cleansed your thoughts .

one love ya'all
deh ,kamsahamida.

just a wish .

2007-06-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

HaPpY bIrThDAy TUNG HSIU TZU!!

may it be a day filled with JOy yah. smsed you too... dunno whether you'll receive it .. haha..already a big gal...stop bullying BOYs!!! many more wishes to come yah?

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida

hear me out!

2007-06-08T20:54:00.000+08:00

depletion of natural resources especially crude oil /petroleum and rise of non-biodegrable items such as polysterene cups and take-away packs. those are a few of the major concerns in the current world today . some claim that petroleum will deplete within 50 years time..some say 2024, looking at the rapid pace of the industrial activities which require it . do check out oildepletion.blogspot.com during your free time..i will definitely finish reading it soon. well, we can't do much right now.. but hey , at least be AWARE first.

and i was just watching tv and got bored with the advertisement , i decided to switch to a sport channel for a while. i was then watching FORMULA ONE and the forecast of the montreal Grand Prix. okay, here , i see a small commercial of team SAUBER PETRONAS, put simply .it was presenting graphical images of their ideal car running around the track with the objective to promote their team and the sponsors involved. Okay, FYI, PETRONAS , is malaysia's leading oil refining company which has major exports to neighbouring regions and one of the driving force that maintains the economy backbone of MALAYSIA. all right , after that commercial, this question came to my mind..
'
' all ryt , here i see PETRONAS sponsoring an F1 team and on the other hand ..and oil depletion which can bring about detrimental effects to the world. k what's the connection here?''

personally, i just don't understand why F1 is such a MAJOR hit.to me, it's just skillful drivers handling their cars at high speed and going abt 54 laps and at the end.what's interesting..drivers will lose 3-4 kg of water after each race..so cool ..there are only 3 winners in each round and the rest just collect consolation points for their team. i've attended an enrichment course in my college with regards to the beauty of engineering in F1. from there, i totally understand that F1 is an arena for engineers , car component makers ..etc etc to pit their expertise on the line to create the FASTEST car on track ..and who ever successfully do so shall receive honours and increase their companies' reputation ..other than that...sponsors are just there MAINLY for their publicity cos of the millions and millions of FANS watching world wide. sure, who wouldn't seize the opportunity to do so ? BUT ..never the less.. what's the main GOAL at the very end of the day? so what if we create the best F1 car with refined aerodynamics and precisely tuned-up engine? CAN MOST OF US AFFORD IT in the 1st place?

okay , i try to fit into the shoes of FUEL COMPANIES. well, they will be conducting R&D to create fuel that gives maximum performance.. yes credit shd be given for their tireless effort .. however , wouldn't it be better to reserve for your own countries' use.. i've absolutely no intention in condemning their move in contributing into F1.. but it's just a piece of my mind. well, there is always oil rigging all around the world in search of NEW oil sources but eventually , it will deplete. it will!! and even with other alternatives which have the potential to replace petroleum ..there is no reason for us to waste our precious away.. we need to achieve SUSTAINABLE development.

was just reading an article in channelnewsasia.com and they were mentioning about the cost of packaging materials on the verge of rising and that's definitely not a good sign for we ASIANs who like to 'tah pau' / take away. Businessmen would have no other resort but to raise their prices in order to counter the rise of cost and with this , it leads to consumers being the 'victims' . oh no , haha.. but government bodies are going to meet up to discuss the standard packaging all over the region which includes the quota for exports and imports.. i have this silly idea.. why don't we just bring our own tupperwares to hawker centres and take away?? perhaps, it sounds SUPER UBER CONVENIENT ..but hey... how heavy can a tupperware be... even if you're placing orders for your colleagues/friends.. i am sure there are plastic bags to carry them right..to me, why don't we introduce a standard tupperware..u know those that look like 'lock and lock' and all consumers will just use this to take away? haha but then again , manafacturing companies would be cursing me for that crappy idea.. and i shall cost thousands of factory workers out of job ryt...come to think of it .. it may not seem feasible cos there'll be ppl who are just too lazy to carry their own lunch boxes or reuse their plastic cases and just DEMAND for a new one. sighx.. well , that's life ...we are supposed to be concerned because of these non biodegrable packagings, we are producing greenhouse gases that are gonna make our climate freaking hot when we are old.. haha ..and what's worse.. our children will be blaming us for OUR environmental apathy and ignorance.. NOO!!!

in 2005 , i was involved in this A level ASSESSED project work with yee yong , bee luan and fadzillah.. we were working on promoting the integration of PEOPLE WITH disabilites [PWD] into the work force by organising bi annual work fair for 'these-abled' people. and recently i caught up with news on singapore companies trying their best to do so .. HOLIDAY INN PARK was one of the eleven companies who share the noble yet common purpose. i am kinda proud that we worked on this issue together.. god bless the PWDs aight. bee, do you think we should hand in our proposal to UR government just for fun? hahaha u never know..

anyways , this is my voice. hear me out and spread the love man.

satisfaction.

2007-06-08T10:14:00.000+08:00

Firstly I would like to heartily congratulate my humble and jovial PRIME MINISTER dato seri datuk Abdullah badawi for finding his new partner in life, Jeanne Abdullah! it was like a meteorite crash lah when it appeared in the news .. well , FYI, PM has lost a very caring wife, datin endon to cancer 2 years back. She was very passionate about promoting Malaysia’s cultural and the ARTs. Three of them have known each other for a very very long time, and I am confident that he must have gotten his wife’s blessings.

a snippet about PM and his bride-to-be.
Jeanne Abdullah, 53, is also the former sister-in-law of his late wife Endon Mahmood, who died of breast cancer in October 2005, the prime minister told reporters.
Endon's death triggered an outpouring of support and sympathy for Abdullah, whose love for his wife inspired many Malaysians. Their 40-year marriage was widely considered a model relationship.
"My love for Endon remains as strong as ever but I have fallen in love with this one," Abdullah said.
"I believe that God has created in your heart many spaces for many people that you can love as much as you want."

http://asia.news.yahoo.com/070606/afp/070606151959asiapacificnews.html

ah, such speech PM. RESPECT.He will be getting married this Thursday. I WISH YOU NOTHING BUT HAPPINESS and I strongly believe with a woman standing behind him, PM Abdullah will bring Malaysia to greater heights!

Hello life, these past 2 days have been wonderful especially Wednesday , where I took a trip down to KL to take a look at my comp accessories. It was like 6 months since the last time I came to KL and we started off our journey by getting lost in KL. *lol* we actually walked and walked around and asked around for direction to find a direct bus to our destination. After 25 minutes, we just reached this conclusion. ‘Isn’t this we boarded our bus earlier on?’ Haha, we immediately pointed fingers at each other and laughed along eventually. We took the train instead and it was much more convenient even though it was rather a lil’ expensive.

We finally reached Low Yat Plaza , the techies and gadgets haven for everybody.. it claims to be the best place to get the best deal for any electronics in Malaysia. Well, for my Singaporean friends.. it’s a.k.a SIM LIM SQUARE. Haha I am sure that rings a bell to you guys. Okay , we were checking out laptops and speakers.. haha, I was so doubtful about speakers ‘cos I am definitely a dummy when it comes to buying such stuff.. For speakers, we are ought to look out for the power of the bass..So that when we blast our music, the feeling will be very ecstatic ! so NTU , ready to be rocked by DJ KIWANA bOY. haha, my friends recommended this powerful ALTEC LANSING speaker worth RM165. wah , initially I was really hesitant cos it’s kinda expensive but heck, it was worth the investment. I never regretted every single second upon the purchase. Bought myself a usb hub and a Samsung keyboard for my laptop too. My next target to come : a COOLER pad for my laptop. I was so amazed about the things you can equip laptop with.. the cooler is basically placed underneath your laptop and has 2/3 mini fans blowing the heat off the computer.. it’s like whoa.. even laptops can be given so much care! Cool sia.

Then at night , as planned we went watching shrek 3. it wasn’t that as promising as the 1st two . but hey, doing a trilogy is definitely not easy ..shrek 3 was just plain lame lah .. haha.. Only kids can be entertained so much by the cuteness of shrek and his co-characters. The only thing that entertained me was puss repeating his trademark at early part of the movie and also as DONKEY. *LOL* donkey is just funny. But none the less I was pretty turned off with shrek’s dream about his baby… vomiting like a water hose [which totally imitated scary movie] and the million copies of his baby haunting him.. so …annoying. It was like they are just making that part for the sake of doing it. But yalah, what more I can bargain for …it’s only RM6. =P

Friends are catching Pirates of the Caribbean 3 tonight and I won’t be joining them. For the very obvious reason, I did not catch pirates 1 and 2. All I could remember was that I slept 10 minutes after pirates 1. Probably, I couldn’t be convinced to watch it again. =]

Finally, I have gotten myself some things and I am in the mood to get more. haha, is this how gals feel when they do shopping? I wonder. Perhaps, it’s called the shopping adrenaline. One thing is for sure; if there is something that has caught your eyes, just buy it regardless of the price. That’s one lesson I learnt from my December trip to KL. I was so attracted to this ADICOLOR t shirt which was worth RM35 because it was the ‘clearing of stock season’.. When I got home I went to an adidas shop and I found out that ADICOLOR was also no more available. Oh no. I totally regretted my ignorance. Now, when I am about to buy expensive stuffs, I would just console myself with this line, ‘’ it’s an investment. A fruitful one.’’ And it works! Haha. I’m trying to break the calculative barrier in me and making myself more flexible when it comes to shopping. One thing that I can’t resist spending on is food. Food is a NECESSITY. I do not mind a single bit cos’ I am trying out new cuisines and It definitely pampers my taste bud. As the saying goes, ‘’ I LIVE TO EAT’’.ah talking about food, I am so craving for a SUSHI BUFFET. Waiting to enjoy it in Singapore !! oh yah,SONY MID YEAR PROMO is here too.. eyeing on a new mp3. =]
Replies to tags:
Bee: haha , I love you too lah mei mei.. hehe.. no worries
DENISE: don’t say that too early.hope you’re feeling better ba! =]

One love ya’all
Deh,kamsahamida.

can't wait for tomorrow!

2007-06-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

these past few days have been just great lah . can't describe to you in details.. all i can tell is that i have been driving myself to places in town. shifting gears is really fun! nowadays i dare to cut into lanes with precision and without hesistation. MY NEXT challenge? to do side parkings or in a more understable term: parallel parking.

tomorrow i will be heading down to KUALA LUMPUR to check out some computer gadgets to further equip my laptop and gear myself for uni life especially for my hostel. of cos, i will be going there with my childhood buddies, [chua, pc ,willy] going to make some price comparisons and sealing the best deals .. i'm definitely looking forward to purchasing good speakers , keyboard and USB HUB. =D .now that is a GOOD investment with my hard earned money. or so i said. dad did not seem that happy cos he said i'll be EVEN MOOOOORE distracted in my hostel. jokingly but sharply he said,'' if you are going to be like that, u can even kiss your MERIT goodbye.'' PLUS at night , we'll be catching SHREK 3 at RM 6!.. SAWEEEEET!!!

-felt the heat for sure- but i knew my dad meant well. =D
told my sis and my macha aravin about my keen interest of getting myself a crumpler. well, after much thoughts , i think it is seriously worth it . good ah! i shall get back to singapore and calculate my actual profits and carefully allocate them to good use!

okay let me ease my mind and type what ever is coming through my mind ..i know it's pointless to blog if you ain't in the mood.. but ..heck ! *breathe in and out*

ah! well, i was working out with my gym mates a.k.a secondary school friends [peh , willy and kew ] .. and we listened to MIKA. do you guys know who is MIKA? hehe, well we termed him as the new GEORGE MICHAEL in terms of style , voice and sexuality[hehe, ain't sure about this] . well, MIKA is famous for his songs such as grace kelly, love today , and ''RELAX, take it easy.'' .. his girly voice is just .gay .. haha..despite that fact.. his tunes are definitely .freestylish and very contagious .. for you guys who are curious ..just check out on you tube k.. i have a very weird behaviour for music. WHAT ever songs that i find irritating and gay will eventually be my FAVOURITE songs. you feel me? haha.. i will just keep on repeating the annoying lines /chorus and POOF .. the songs are my no .1 hits ..at least it lasts for a week or so. hahaha..for songs that just strikes me deep.. like '' promiscous girl, UMBRELLA ,'' and korean songs.. i WOULD JUST REPEAT THEM oVER and OVER again for the very day in my itunes library up to about 100++ count plays EACH respectively. i find that very very entertaining.call me crazy but REPETITIOn of songs is definitely my style of appreciating music. if you don't find me repeating songs. u can just infer..*lol* deep down i am sure i'm not the only one in this world who does that right..

my current hit: UMBRELLA [rihanna feat. jay -z]
my favourite part: the chorus
take a look at this meaningful lyrics with the retarded tune at the very end.

Because when the sun shines,
we shine together
Told you I'd be here forever, said I'll always be your friend
Tough enough, Iet me stick it out to the end
Now that it's raining more than never
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella (x2) ella ella eh eh eh under my umbrella (repeat)

see the BOLDED ENLARGED words.. those are the most .. creative style of singing the word ''umbrella''
hahaha, i can just irritate myself with only that line all day. i was just repeating this song on mu handphone while i was driving in town ..my homies and i just keep on saying those line from time to time to keep our spirits alive..whether in gym or late night suppers. guys check it out k .. and u might even get hooked to it.

this is the url:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7bK4Vee36M

okay's that's that.

haha well since my thoughts are still flowing lemme share another story of mine..
one day , out of the blue , while watching a drama scene with my mum i said, '' mummy , i wanna be a THIRD PARTY when i grow up. '' hahaha, for obvious reason , i did not really mean it and it's just to test my mum's reaction. my mum just said.. '' go aheadlah, it's your life '' . OH MAN . an unbelievable approval.. then i immediately responded , '' i want to be the best third party.. holding the girl's hand and snatching her away from her current boyfriend. then , everyone will start coming to you [my mum] and say ..''eh is that your son ? tsk tsk " how would you feel mum ?'' and i added '' plus , what If ..what if she loves me more than her bf and we elope just like the movie scenes.''

then my mum just sighed and smiled while saying
'' well , if that ever happens , YOU THINK ABOUT it. if a girl can just ditch her bf just like that.. why can't she do it with another man when she is with YOU??!! ''

-the crow cries and the deafening silence-

enuff said. ''oh no, my mum OVERWHELMED me'' . so that's why i always wonder.. how do casanovas really feel .. tasting the sweet success of destroying other people's relationships and being betrayed by their ''current loved ones'' ..haha.. respect!i still can't imagine how casanova's can get still get the girl while others ,generally speaking are very aware of his status already. still..i'm still giving a thought.[being the 3rd party] .. hahaha .. kidding lah huh .. kidding! but hey , life is like gambling.. full of risk takings. we might never know whether we will be the third part UNINTENTIONALLY ,agree?

one quote i love to share with you all :

''if you don't wanna get hurt , don't fall in love''

this quote is simply brilliant. all thanks to our korean dramas.think about it .

one love ya ' all .
deh ,kamsahamida.

feeling , old.

2007-06-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

the past few days were just normal to me.. ahaha.. my laziness was really overwhelming.. haha.. let's talk about friday night , my 1st ever night drive.. haha.. was super scary lah .. because initially , when i looked at my rear mirror i saw so many spotlights shining on it .. thus , was a lil' confused with the positions of the car.. haha.. next up i was entering the car park of a shopping mall.. and i had to drive up a spiral.. wow.. it's so thrilling.. just keep spinning till u reach the top.. met my friends for a kbox session but unfortunately i was not able to celebrate my 1st night singing karaoke because my friend's voucher was not valid for the day .. therefore, we had to postpone to next week and we straight drove to a mamak stall for late supper and chatted all night long.. thought of crashing into my friends' UNIversity and campus next week.. haha, feel like mingling around with NEW people.. feasting my eyes on pretty gals and fishing out potential girls ..yah.. SUPER despo!!

today my aunt and uncle and my godfather came to give my family a SUPRISE.. haha.. i, who was in the midst of watching a drama was definitely caught off guard , immediately tidied up my room to look presentable.. my cousin and his son came along too and i played with my nephew. haha .. taught him how to spell, count and draw at the same time.. young children are definitely naive, loud , straightforward and innocent.. haha. caught up with my relatives' affairs and gossips .. sharing the 'new's ' is surely a must in my family .. especially my mum who is the SMOOTH operator .

talking about small children , i am easily entertained looking at small children playing around.. haha. i do sound 'paedophilic' aren't i ? but to those who did not perceive it that way, good for you .. WE are MATURE.. for the otherwise..tsk tsk. enuff said. ah yes , back to my point .. there was once.. this brother [abt 5 yrs old] was just punching his younger brother [3 yrs old] non-stop at a shopping mall.. what i found amusing was tht.. instead of crying because of the severe bully .. the younger one just kept coming back for more and laughed like hell.. hahaha.. oh man.. i was totally off the hook and started laughing like there 's no tomorrow.. if you were there.. you def say that i'm high on drugs ..for sure.. sometimes ..it's just good to laugh on trivial stuff..agree?

reflection time:
then when i was about to sleep..i decided to look at my past photos .. those taken in singapore since 2003.. looking at every single piece of them just brings back to SAWEET memories.. reminding how CRAZY [much more] i was back then .. hehe . i really like to share my experiences with someone ..okay , i do share my experiences with some of my peeps and my sis ..and my mum too. but , in my heart , i have always wished for a YOUNGER sibling.. a younger sister preferably.this was someone i would really pour out every single thing that happened in my life to .well, this sister of mine ..is really blood related lah of cos.. i do have some mei mei's in my life.. [bee ah , jam ah , huizyi ah] .. haha you all don't feel offended ah.. you guys are nice too.. call me mr emo, but there are times , i just become soft when i see an elder child holding hands with his/her younger brother/sister. i always tell myself how nice if that really happened to me..a younger sister that i can chat with , i can hug with , i can cry with , i can care for..teaching her in her subjects..watching her performance, gossip with her..playing sports with her.. but it never did. given a chance , sometimes , i wish my mum would really give birth to another one..i'm not implying that i'm deprived of love .. my bro and sister are the best siblings that occured to me in life..cherishing with everflowing care and love.. but haha..this is destiny and i'm resigning to it.

once a upon a time , i've asked my mummy ,

" mummy, why was i born into this world? and what's with the HUGE age gap btw me and my bro[10 years]?''

and the reply was .. '' i needed someone to ENTERTAIN ME. to keep me companied and to demolish the boredom''

i felt. - -" indescribable.

ah anyways.. that's that. some of my friends say .. younger siblings somehow are not really that exciting .. haha..they can be EXTRA troublesome ..irritating ..and because of their nature , they might even disrespect you . ouch .. that's painful for me to accept .. haha but through my friends' behaviour towards their younger siblings i can just tell it crystal clear. aihz..sometimes , people might not be able to see the long run .. that it these moments that make our lives WONDERFUL especially reminiscing the past together when we are grown up... i've done some recollections with my sister before and boy.. the bond just strengthens immediately . do you feel me?

i'm already 20 this year.. 5/6 years down the road.. i can foresee some of friends getting married already.. and let me tell you something . 5/6 years will pass by VERY VERY FAST judging on how my bro has gone thru... then i can imagine myself holding my friends' children by the time i hit 28.. haha .. oh man.. i dun wanna grow old that fast.. i feel robbed of my youth years like i mentioned in my past entry..my dad still thinks i maturing at a slow rate.. lol..perhaps i don't intend to show him that's all ..cos everyday .. i will just YAK YAK and YAK away with my mum.. telling her about my dreams .. just laughing at myself for no reason.. and my dad will just shake his head and say .. university is not going to be easy. ah.. what an impression i have left on my dad..

-shrugs-

those who were successful in their appeals.. GOOD! for you .. two thumbs up.. those who are still waiting.. don't think too much over it..if it's yours it's yours! keep that spirit high. AJA AJA!.. those who are just rotting away at home.. DO SOME COMMUNITY SERVICE or donate blood.. save a LIFE !! i am going to donate in singapore once i get back.. go collect the colourful armband..hehe.. i feel so GAY!

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.

gAy SHOT!it kills.

2007-05-31T21:21:00.000+08:00

i know this might be a few hours early.. but i'm in the mood lah ..so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TwACY TaN XiU NING .[1st of june hor]enjoy yourself with a perfect company for the day and many more wishes to come for you all right? so many more announcements to come too.. ahaha..

last evening was another perfect night.. squash and badminton were just brilliant . each of us [ah kin, yap , cheok hoong, willy and jye ] strutted our special moves in both games.. haha .. many tricks yet to be revealed. haha , as me and jye were playing .. we were naming our badminton and squash shots.. our fav: CONFUSION shot in badminton. haha.. it's simply done by placing the shuttlecock right in between opponents[badminton doubles.] *lol* we just keep on shouting those moves as if we were in some fantasy land battling out with our magical spells..my personal favourite is definitely the GAY shot. it is just pure drop shots that no one can take. haha..soft touch is the only thing needed to execute it.

this afternoon , went driving alone again.. this time, after taking my dad's route, i went to challenge myself to drive in town. FWAH. it was so tensed.. haha, had to constantly shift my gears to adjust the speed as there was 'lunch-time' traffic. ahaha , there was one point where i the newbie was not even spared to cut into the critical lane. i gave my left signal and to my disappointment , my left side mirror was pointing to the sky, so i had to turn my head just to look at the flow but i was pretty slow to move in alr as there were no kind souls .. so i had to drive straight into TOWN and make an AWFUL big round to go home. but it was no matter ..i had more experience =] .what made it more interesting was that my fuel tank indicator was directly on the letter E which means EMPTY. feeling worried,i immediately switched off the aircon and wound down my window, trying my best to feel '' the HOT breeze'' and rushed home. when i got home , i told my parents about the whole driving journey, my dad laughed and said, ''when it is pointing towards E , it's not empty. plus you can still move for 70km. our old car is spoilt in terms of indicators.haha.'' my mum laughed along.

[ - -''''' ]

driving rocks.enuff said.oh by the way, my car .. is 29 years of age. imagine hw strong it can still be. i am definitely more comfortable with this piece of STEEL!
then i drove out again to gym with my dad beside me. he provides with the best moves on the road.love you dad.

well, 5 months are going to be officially over. let us ask ourselves this question :

''what have i done so far?" some have worked , some have just stayed at home rotting [i am sure there are some of you doing that] , some went overseas..time flies..

haha, for me working for 4 mths, getting my driving license, pumping some irons and slacking in between have just been perfect. but i have not started reading my accountancy notes yet.. oh no.. i don't want it to go to waste ba. so i am determined to complete the notes by end of next week. well, my dad constantly reminds me of the MAJOR obstacle i'm going to face in my 3 yr course due to the fact that i don't have any accounting knowledge unlike SOME who have taken principle of accounts in their secondary school.. well, it is true . but i am sure i am not alone in this case too.

till now , i have not really spend my money on PRECIOUS items. so many doubts when perfect items come to mind. well, i am definitely going to get myself two t-shirts i saw in giordano tomorrow or saturday soon. come let's venture into my mind about things i WISH to buy:

a) a signature pen a.k.a an EXPENSIVE YET EXCLUSIVE pen .

rebuttal: mum said, '' aiyah eric , your daddy got so many fountain pens, guy laroche , parker pen , mont blanc,.. all his company sponsored one ..all you gotta do is to REFILL it'' ..so there, 1st wish GONE!

b) a CRUMPLER bag
rebuttal: i have around 5-6 bags and 1 sling bag[from haik and fadz] already. how many more do i need?i can already foresee my sister shaking her head .BUT i want mah.. uni life eh..

c) a digital alarm clock [those horizontal where the time glows in the dark] for my future room

rebuttal: dad got me a mini one already saying that i shouldn't waste money . haiz true enuff

d) a new mp3 player [sony or ipod nano]
rebuttal: what about my lovely i-pod shuffle? it has been with me thru thick and thin . but there's some connection problem between the ear phone and the port. but still..my bro gave it to me.. cannot..

e) a new laptop with HIGHER lifespan without the adaptor. my current one lasts only 1hr and 10 mins on its own.haha..that's sad.

rebuttal: is there anything WRONG with the laptop besides that?
ans: NO . aish.. how how.. hahaha

f)a NEW desktop for my room in UNIversity
rebuttal: i already have a laptop. even so , my brother would just transfer his in our singapore flat to my room . [slaps forehead]

g) an elegant watch . [tudor, sincere lacroix, tissot, tag haeur]
rebuttal : my mum bought me a timex watch right after i lost my swatch irony watch. PRICELESS and i still love it.. so this is rather a WEAK need

h) a COOL.. way cool ZIPPO lighter .
rebuttal : i don't smoke plus lifting the cover immediately causes it to light and it wastes fuel.the fuel itself is expensive.

so MANY things on my mind that i WISH to have ...POSSESS!! but none the less, my reasoning nature intervenes and DOMINATES my thinking..all thanks to my debating rationalisation lah.you feel me?
we see how lah.. there are actually much more things on my mind.. but it's gonna be one heck of an entry ..so let's save it for next time. come to think of it, MONEY doesn't come easily. those who worked in any field .. you guys totally understand right , getting nagged by the boss, listening to petty complaints,sometimes, being too bored to DEATH and working overtime .. all these are definitely our 'blood and tears'' right? perhaps, it is necessary for me to set aside some cash for books and my own pocket money for NTU. CALCULATIVE , i shall nurture in me.

best wishes to all those making their appeals , those who moved on , i am happy for you and always know that kiwana boy is here to support you whenever he could. those going overseas..[ky and veron] bon voyage and i pray that u have a safe trip! if you are reading this , BUY me GOODIEs!!

one love ya'all
deh ,kamsahamida.

taking a spin on the road!

2007-05-30T13:16:00.000+08:00

ahneyong saeyo. kiwana boy had a blast yesterday and today . ah yes , first and foremost.
happy birthday LEE XIN YI!!

haha yes, i must make it point to wish my friends' happy birthday whenever i could.. especially those close to heart! haha, so, let me summarise my activities yesterday:

squash>badminton>a lil'gym>chicken rice>herbal tea>small chat>a game of DOTA by myself>dinner at a restaurant with peeps>went shopping at TESCO>hanged out at my buddy's house>chat chat ,rap rap , sang 'KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRL" and LAUGHED like there's no tomorrow.

boy, do i really miss laughing with my old buddies ..nothing beats this.. hehe.. we just laughed after every word we spoke. laughed so much till i started coughing like there's no tomorrow.. haha but doing all those activities without a nap did cause me fatigue .. serious one.. ahaha.. when my friend sent me home.. i couldn't utter a word.. both of us were so exhausted lah. haha.. see the FUN we can achieve without BEER>. this is what i like to call .. a HEALTHY 'HIGH'.

yup that was yesterday , this morning .. i drove my mum to my new house.. oh yah , my mum bought a new house and it''s currently under serious renovation. my mum is such a DEVOTEE.. when it comes to the new house.. everyday she would travel there .. to see whether the contractor and his crew are doing a good job.after that .. i drove around my garden /neighbourhood by myself. MY FIRST REAL DRIVE.. no guidance.. just pure instincts and co-ordination of my hands and feet . then after a few rounds round my area.. i went out to the main road. the road which my dad took me thru the other day .. whoa.. i was SO enthusiatic about itlah.. well, although i was slow .. haha i managed to speed to 70km/h on the road.. haha.. i even challenged myself to ACCELERATE when there was a chance to.. haha.. driving is slowly becoming a part of me. haha.. one thing i learnt from driving is to really be ATTENTIVE and be able to 'multi-task' on the road.
things to be aware while driving simultaneously:

a) look at your side mirror when you wanna switch lane
b)look at your rear mirror to see any fast car approaching at your lane, if there is , we must yield and move aside
c) don't day dream
d) must take note of all the 'loose' motorcyclists who can just shoot pass you or come out of nowhere from any junctions.

yup. driving is one thing, being cautious is another thing. do you feel me ? haha. those taking driving lessons.. enjoy it lah yah!

this evening , i might be going out to have a game of tennis and squash . hopefully ba. waiting for another great plan to come up. i've been to JUSCO a few times and had my eyes on some t-shirts.i believe it's time to invest in some good t-shirts. i've been repeating the same old t-shirts i have right now when i go out with my friends.. but we aren't that particular lah. most important .. we don't smell and we have a good time .

one love ya'all .
deh, kamsahamida.

the day i met janice.

2007-05-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

firstly,
happy birthday to chua mei shan and khoo bee luan .hope you had a nice day !!

HALLO life. today at 2.10pm , i met this very beautiful girl . her name is JANICE. yes. it's true. she is from HK , a very talented singer.!!! she was down in my humble town to make her PROMOTION!!! oh my god.. i know this entryt might sound out of the blue, but i am so in love with her.. those who still dunno about her , go check her out lah okay.

i first heard of her from my buddy ,leon lee .. heheh my australian buddy. he recommended her to me ever since NOVEMBER 2006 thru her HIT song using youtube.. at 1st i wasn't impressed at all. but today, i had the instinct to see her myself.. since she is in TOWN . haha..oh my god , when she 1st came onto stage.. my heart melted.. KAWAII nia.. omg.. haha..awesomely cute.
by the way , she is mixed ..korean,filipino and chinese.. wah super combo.. I AM MIXED too.. hmmx... nah nah.. i just like her .. haha. i know my standard =] ain't good enuff for her..

hahaha..okay that's not the point ..well, she started singing her songs.. and i totally love it.. there were so many avid fans of hers .. there was one who went on stage for a mini-competition .. said he was from JOHOR BAHRU.. wow ..imagine that.. okays for you who can't tell the distance ..it's like 3.5 hours ride from there to my hometown on a 80km/h vehicle.. do your math... hahaha.. very enthu fan indeed.. and of cos.. there were booths selling her cd and posters.. well, knowing hw passionate i was at the spur of the moment.. i told myself:

'' YES, i will get her album .. from my friend willyson! "

haha..i know this is wrong.. haha.. but piracy is my life.. currently i am listening to her..humming to the song . haha. GO JANICE.. yes back to my story . my friends [ ah chua kor and willyson] and i took out our phones and tried recording her performances.. but there were so many jostlings around.. our recordings are kinda shaky.. NONE THE LESS.. janice looked in our direction when she sang too.. omg.. i was so.. 'bouncy' in heart.. haha.. i was so brave[i think i am] ... i shouted her name when she looked in our direction and i waved at her.. then i confidently knew she smiled at me..=] cos once i shouted her name.. i waved at her .. hahahaha.. lol i gleefuly laughed and smiled big big for her to see..and she smiled and waved back at me and my friends too.. and it happened twice
though it was not captured on camera.. those moments were precious..priceless. YAY!!

NOW i TRULY UNDERSTAND why fans can go GA-GA over their idols.. cos i was almost like that.. haha it's all at the spur of the moment. well, TANK AND YANZI coming down to malaysia next saturday..tank in my hometown, yanzi in kl.. wahahaha.. i am so high now.. omg i need to relax now..oh , according to my friend , choy ling , WUZUN came down to kl last saturday .. 10000 fans went flooded BERJAYA TIMES SQUARE.. gosh.. that's crazy.. but i can understand.. she claimed some were from thailand, taiwan and singapore too.. haha.. the attraction of a beautiful boy..ironically, my mum doesn't find him attractive at all. she thinks the same for HEBE too.. AIHZ.. the generation gap.. [shakes head]

i have official idol in different countries already... hyori in korea, hebe in taiwan , janice in hk, and KIM in australia..where's malaysia!!! looking forward.. it was SITI NURHALIZA once.. but she got married .. ah.. hot factor GOES DOWN drastically.. so i am in search for MY MALAYSIA idol.. FIGHTING..

tmr i shall receive my driving license ..can't wait! AJA AJA!!
those making their appeals.. let's hope for the best! come what may.

one love ya 'all
deh, kamsahamida.

it's OFFICIAL!

2007-05-26T19:59:00.001+08:00

on the 24th of may , kiwana boy has made himself proud by making a comeback after a hurtful downfall on the previous week.. by executing every single move with his car to pass his driving exams. **phEW**

haha, hello life , i am so glad that my 'burden' has been removed from my heart and glad to announce that i am an OFFICIAL driver. yay!! hahaha.. now , i am waiting for monday to receive my license =] and i'll be roaming down the streets pretty soon. but i gotta admit.. i am a verY .. terribly slow driver on the road. haha, those motorcylists who just pop up out of nowheregodknows and make the slightest cut near your car, really freak me out .. especially when i sit beside my dad .. man, i gotta toughen myself up. and everyone that i know is driving An AUTOMATIC car.. wahlao.. ahhaha.. what happened to the MANUALs.. ah COMELAH monday.. and i shall take my old DATSUN car for a spin.

yesterday i went down to the immigration centre to renew my passport. haha.. procedures were pretty usual and mundane but! stereotypes WERE always alive though.. yes people, i was mistaken by the looks ..again.. since the age of 9..

-oh, the heartache-

okays okays.. many of you of know me might say that i always bring up this topic.. but you know.. every encounter with these people is special..this time .. a pregnant officer attended to me .then as she checked thru my documents.. she smiled and grinned for a while.. this is the convo:

officer: -grins- you're not malay?
kb :-grins back- nolah (..but in his heart was like : _ _"")
officer: haha, okays .. cos you do have the feature of a malay boy
kb : ah , well, everyone says so. (-glass shatterings-)
officer:hehe, so you're mixed lah i presume...

bla bla bla bla....

yes , since she was pregnant .. i played along with her.. =] we joked along lah here and there since it was not crowded on that say. i pray that she'll get a healthy baby yah..she was nice and pleasant .
haha, dear readers, kiwana boy has no intentions of bringing up any racial issue right here k neither is he facing any stereotype depression.. haha. i'm totally okay with it .. haha..back in singapore only 2 immediately SPOKE MANDARIN TO ME.those were my happiest moments the rest were like the above.. abt my classmates.. i can't remember lah.. haha..

okay let me enlighten you some facts about me yah..my dad is a 'teo-chew nang ' and my mum is a ' chinese peranakan' . apparently my dad , although a teo-chew nang, he has 1/4 siamese blood due and 3/4 chinese.. wow.. my mum, has 1/8 MALAY BLOOD, and the rest chinese ..because her grandmum was a malay married to a chinese.. and now the question : why am i not muslim ? because at that time , people were not strict with the ISLAMIC regulations. according to mum , only women married to malay men must be converted where else for the otherwise , it is optional.

CONCLUSION: i have a trace of malay blood,siamese, and chinese. haha. looks like the recessive amt was the major factor which determined my looks. haha. well, that further consolidates my malay look le. so 'bo-pian'lah when people call me a malay. i also reply 'ya allah' [a.k.a oh my god] . lol..no offense there ah!

all right moving on...
HIGH TEA SESSION. NUS has sent me invitation to attend a tea session TODAY. and i declined it lah .. cos i have made up my mind.. but reading their agenda totally shaken my NTU determination. first things first , it IS ' NOT AN HOUR of INFO and ANOTHER HOUR of teasession and tour' kinda session .. unlike NTU .. aihz. it starts from 2.30pm and ends pretty late at night .. thats right late at night.. 2.30 to 6 plus will include talks , breaks , games , and refreshments.. and the HIGHLIGHT!!!! :

PARTY AT SAINT JAMES POWERHOUSE STATION!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG...WHY NUS SO 'ZAI' ONE............in the letter.. buses will be provided from the tea session and admission plus drink charges will be covered.. okay lah , i mean not to the extent of liquor lah.. then in the mail.. it is suppose to end at 8pm at St James.. and for those who would like to stay on can do so.. OH MY GOD>.....WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! haha
if only i knew nus's hospitality.. i would have...oh my , what am i typing..CANNOT!

i made up my mind alr. steady .steady. [breathe in , breathe out!]

to zp:

difference between them n'us ah... haha.. well can't say much. cannot downplay NUS also.cos my bro and sis graduated from there..lol. and i admit lah, after reading that mail, i would like to say ..

N U S ROCKS.

but none the less,

N T U is better.wahaha, must be loyal nia. i am enjoying life right now.. come to think of it, it is the 2nd longest holiday I can get in life .. so i MUST TREASURE it kao kao.. cos the next long holiday will be the day that i retire..

that's all for today . to those who have cherished your love for kiwana boy.TERIMA KASIH BANYAK2 ah.. your support during my downfall were vital.

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.

it's OFFICIAL!

2007-05-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

my mind is clear now

2007-05-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

today.. i had fierce funny yet fun battle in badminton .. played doubles ..whoa.. despite losing in the decider.. the adrenaline rush was priceless. haha.. it's good to sweat it out.. later , my friends and i proceeded for lunch and it was like a 'send-off' lunch for my friend ,ting poh who will be starting his UNI orientation tomorrow in KL.. haha. what a distance.. and you know what is the funny thing..he will be back by friday night - -"" .. oh my.. what a 'send-off' and we just laughed happily amongst ourselves..

later at night, went searching and analysing all the financial issues from the NTU website.. wow.. it's pretty serious when i browsed thru each and every single page.. but of cos, it is for my future financial planning. ah, i feel so ádult' in preparing myself for NTU. checked out the hostel fees and all.. its gonna be a lum sum though..anyways.. my family and i see it as an INVESTMENT.
all i got to do now.. is to excel. hopefully.. after 4 years of ups and downs in singapore.. it's time to do the neccessaries and dismiss the otherwise.. no time to lose!

now.. MY DRIVING test. a retake.
gg to drive with my daddy tomorrow .. early in the morning .. i am seriously like a tiger ready to prounce on my prey . ain't anxious but ANTICIPATING. steady lah !

ONE SHOT . ONE MOMENT. MY GLORY.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

time MUST fly.

2007-05-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

hey life , nothing much to blog about . just don't wanna see my previous 'heart-breaking' entry to be the latest entry . haha. well, after that day , my life was like declining .. haha.. badminton was so bad.. in a sense .. my senses were just blurred. mind not focussed too. then later at night at a cybercafe.. i was condemned as a newbie in a game of DOTA.. all because i was accused 'stealing kills' from my teammates.. in a sense i gained all the credit with minimum effort.. such envy.. its just a virtual reality game.. sadx..

today i went down to kl to see my aunt and my nephew and niece.. they are so adorable.. but they didn't play with me much either.. i mean of cos.. children don't mix with 'strangers' ..perhaps i could only click with them when they are able to speak properly in the near future.. speaking about that.. i might only see them oni in 3 years time.. wah.. so LONG..

being a 20 yr old .. i feel .. INCOMPLETE.. i've been looking thru photos that i have taken when i was in singapore since 2003.. brought back so many vivid memories of the good old times.. though it was FUN.. i feel like that i've been robbed of my youth .. thanks to the singapore education. when i checked with my m'sian buddies.. they get to drive,drink , go down to KL more often .. karaoke-ing.etc etc.things that i could not enjoy in secondary school.. haha.. cos at that time.. my class kinda segregates the scholars.. so we scholars are closer to our own kind helplessly.. so .. there was no such thing as a CLASS outing at all.. not even one ...in 2 years in SJI.. haha..a gr8 class huh.. but we do joke around in class.. those moments are at the spur of the moments only.. which leads to the reason why i LOVE JC life much more than SJI.. haha ..cos i get to meet greater people like my class peeps.. angklung members and council buddies .. you guys are special.

none the less, i might have overcommited to non-academic activities in JC which led to my 2nd downfall in life.. where my scholarship was on the brinks. ah.. that was the past.. that was just another random thought going thru my mind ryt now..

well.. 4 more days to my conquest in getting my driving license..can't wait to get it over and done with.

those WAITING for their CRUCIAL results for med and dent. .. all the best.. PRAYERS and BEST wishes to my peeps that are concerned..

BEE .. welcome to the club.. so now.. we have sg with us in NTU aso. =] ..ah yes.. THOSE pondering about their UNIs.. NTU is the place lah.. hahahhahaha.. especially my class peeps. COME TO NTU ah.. NTU is the IN thingy .plus .. ntu is A SCHOOL OF GLOBAL EXCELLENCE sia..wah ..i hear that already.. my morale lifted 3 times higher.. haha but those who have gotten teaching awards .. go to NUS lor ..=D can still meet up ah.. unless you people FOUND ur special someone..then no time for me =P.. i can understand.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

MISSION FAILED.

2007-05-17T12:42:00.000+08:00

hi LIFE, today i let myself down again. WHAT THE .... everything so smooth till the veryx10 last hurdle. the 3 pt turn.. the easiest of all.. and i screwed it because of a simple jerk forward .. which makes my total movement to be 4 turns instead of the required three movements.

-glass shattering-

aRGHHHHHHHH... why? why!! aihz.. i wasn't even complacent .. neither did i laugh at people's mistakes.

i am very down.but aint that depressed compared to JC life when receiving results.. well, life has to move on.. i am so IMMUNED to failures.. so .. next week is my retake. nothing much can be done.. i only have to repeat my internal course cos i have already completed my external course. a very unfortunate karma for me.. i have not sinned people for a long long time..
mum says must seeeeeeek the blessings in disguise as god has his own ways of doings..

"so near yet so far"

no love today but still one love yaáll
deh, kamsahamida.

enuff said.

2007-05-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

do you remember the very 'touching' story of that poor joker where everybody had a good share of laughter which i blogged on april 9 ? i think it's on that day ba. anyways.. this is the sequel ..

todaY,joker just woke up and watched tv ..watched the 'YOUNG and DANGEROUS ' movie series which were seriously entertaining.. beating every other hk movie hands down.. the storylines were just amazing. long live HUNG HING clan. yup.. joker spent the whole day on the couch lah basically like any other average joe..

'' what to do? no girlfriend is like that lah'' .. the famous line from bachelors these days.quoted from ericheahtellsnothingbutthetruth.com

kk.. so at night ..joker went online..chatted with his friends and checked his friendster and his uni application. well , eversince that interview.. joker was checking his application status ..apparently, he was very curious abt the result.. because his peers who have gone their interviews in this particular university have immediately received their replies TWO days [average] after.. haha.. as for joker.. he has been checking online .. for days.. weeks..and finally a reply came in today..after 1 month 6 days..

''congratulations.. you have been offered a place.. bla bla bla..letter will be sent''

WOOHOO..ectasy for this young joker..the feeling of running on a WIDE green field, racing against the wind...shouting for joy were all the things he could thought of doing at that moment. who ever knew he stood a chance.. haha.. i was so touched with this story..i almost cried the tears of happiness.. alot of thoughts ran thru his mind such as..

'' arcade'' ..''arcade eh'' ..''eh really arcade lah'' .. ''sure bo?sure nia''

yah.. lots of thoughts lah... hehehe..
dear readers , do you know what the moral of this story?

nO dream is too big . no passion is suprising enough. LOOK AT THIS JOKER.

HIS PASSION was worth something.

to all you out there with unique hobbies /dreams/goals.. JUST DO IT!

haha.. aight, enuff craps ..one more day and my driving exams will be here.. a do or die. =] i'm so looking forward to it.. nothing much to blog about though.. oh yah.. anyways.. to my singaporean peeps.. i CAN RECEIVE SMSes if you SMS my SINGAPORE NUMBER. but i might not reply fast.. cos i dun check my phone regularly.. and i will reply thru my m'sian number k.=]

one love yá'all
deh, kamsahamida

kiWaNa WISHES!!

2007-05-13T16:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to my mummy dearest and all the mothers in the world who have brought people of different kinds to make this world a rather unique ONE. aight , oNE LOVE, respect. though my mum might not see this, i just wanna wish her the best of health and this is only the day to ACKNOWLEDGE her but i LOVE HER EVERYDAY .. yah. i sayang my dad too.. just that today is MOTHER"S day hor.. haha.. i shall go hug him later too..EQUALITY nia.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY XIONG DI [XD], lai juncheng whose birthday falls on this very special day too.. aight.. miss ya buddy .. realised that you can't receive smses so.. i make this announcement online nia.. one day we go try MOJITO!! at the balcony aight?

okays , gave a call to fadhli all the way in singapore .. just to find out that the background was too noisy .. haha.. well at least i conveyed my 'hi' to class.. hahaa .. sis, not that i dun wanna talk to you , very ex to call singapore ah.. plus , boy boy didnt recognise my voice that was why i called fadhli instead..if not i would talk to her and class oni .. hehehe.. 'bie xiao qi' ahaha.. u like my ending eh .. zai lah.. my version will not only make KIDS cry .. it will make s3 gross the MOST in movie industry.. haha beating lotr trilogy ,matrix trilogy ... king kong.. and etc etc...

k that's all for today nia ..

one love ya'áll
deh,kamsahamida

a TWiSt of FAtE

2007-05-12T12:28:00.000+08:00

gomenasai .. these few days were just filled with suspense ,thrill , anxiety , fun and laughters..
now i'm in a GOOD mood to blog ba..

LAST WEDNESDAY , i went for my QTI a.k.a preliminary round for ma driving test ..it was smooth sailing ..looks like my dads guidance jz paid off sia =] there were so many ppl queing up for the test on that day .. young kids who are waiting to enter college [17 yrs old] ..aunties who failed the previous prelims.. ah bengs , ah lians and the only 20 yr old ME..who lagged 3 years behind his peeps nia.. wah kao.. _ _ .. my friends are just too pro =].. i vowed to be their DRIVER of the month .. haha.. i literally looking forward to drive out everynight and learn my driving skills on the road during midnights..i realise that if i drive at night and jz wind down my window .. it's just so mind relaxing as the cool breeze caresses my face.. ahhaa.. gotta immitate my initial d''s lead character''s slack pose while driving the car.. one arm by the window..one arm by the stering nia.. hahaha..good good. so MY LAST HURDLE will take place next coming thursday at 7 AM ..its a do or die mission for me.. then it's OFFICIAL !

next two days , my friends and i went to play badminton .. woo .. it was just exhilirating playing at high speed, making drop shots at critical angles and tricking each other, with these ppl.. haha.. 2 hours of non stop actions per session.. then at night, we hang out for a game of dota and tried out the latest COMMAND AND CONQUER : tiberium war.. super zai.!!

on friday night , bad luck struck me.. i misplaced my wallet FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME .. at the newly opened TESCO hypermarket which took over MAKRO.. woohoo..i only realised it when i was at my friends place around 2 am? .. funny thing is .. i was not even panicking as if i am the king of lost items.. haha.. i was just blur blur.. and tried recalling where on earth i could have misplaced it .. well, when i got home , my dad woke up and i told the story to my dad.. and as usual he gave me punch liners , like "' lost means lost lor.."'.. " nvmlah, go sleep ".. i think its in my family to play reverse psychology with each other.. to me , i expected some nagging but to hear these slumber cold lines are even scarier than one can expect.. =]the next day , i woke up darn early with a disturbed mind .. praying to god that my wallet can be recovered.. my parents drove me to MACDONALDS , the place where i misplaced it ..with my usual MAT tone , i asked the staffs whether they found any wallet here yesterday night, WITH JOY , the manager gave me back my wallet .. oh my i was like SUPER uber grateful for their kind deed or to the person who returned my wallet to them .. it's gonna be LOTS of GOOD karma to tht special person..god bless ya aight? ..nothing was taken from the wallet either.. two thumbs up.. haaha..goes to show that malaysians aren't that BAD at all.. RESPECT! MALAYSIA bOLEH nia

hehe.. talking about malaysia boleh .. malaysia QUALIFIED TO THE FINALS for the SULTAN AZLAN SHAH HOCKEY CHALLENGE CUP after a long wait of 22 years.. defeating the scary INDIA with a close margin of 2-1 .. WELL done. BEAT AUSTRALIA nia.. =] my spirits are with you guys man...

today my class will gather since a very long time.. haha. to you guys and girls , hope u all enjoy yourselves KAO KAO ah.. get to update urselves with the LATEST gossips..=].. and to those who are reading this, UPDATE ME Too aight? MISS YOU GUYS ALOT LAH.. really..
haha.. no reflections for today.. oh got one lah..

'' if your pants got pockets, just put ur wallet in one of them'' _ _"""

damn, i am so gonna BUY a DOG CHAIN and attached it to my wallet the next time..

to mango ,
hahaha.. it's really KARMA lah for their branches to reduce to 7 ...hahaha.. MORE To come nia.. hehe.. few more days and u''ll be free ah =]..

these past few weeks were very mind easing lah.. slowly,i getting back my groove as the old seremban boy .. haha.. no girls to chio , just pure fun with my old time buddies.. haha.. hey hey ,ain't 'gay-ing' hor.. but my mind is starting to rust.. haha.. i better start doing some sec 1 maths alr.. ahhaa.. sharpen my common sense ..

oh i finally watched spiderman 3..this movie is packed with MESSY actions and a pathetic romance btw PP and MJ.. here, in my seremban theathre , ppl don't laugh NOT only at funny scenes but at the break-ups .. =] i just tag along man..my envisioned ending was for spidey to DIE lah.then goblin shd have not died and take MJ into his arms..sandman cured his daughter after killing spiderman or not, venom shd have just infiltrated spidey's body system and destroy SPIDERMAN..then at the very end venom leaves earth to find his partner, carnage..pEACE is thus restored ..and when spidey is at his last breath .. he tells himself, wHY am i sO cuRsed? and rests in peace.. hahhaha.. i need to watch a movie where a super hero DIES ..and evil REIGNS.. since small , my bro and i always cheer when ultraman lost to his opponent...WE .. enjoy being the ironic crowd.. ahhaa. but SPIDERMAN 3 rox lah because of the price ..RM 6 ONLY . oMg. to my singaporean buddies.. it's like ..$2.67. wow.. come to think of it .. can buy chicken rice in singapore hor.. =] hahaa.. my bad my bad.. no bad intentions there..

all ryt .. those who are waiting for their results regardless of anything be it the interview results, university postings, admission into which faculty.. the best of results for you people..NO MATTER WHAT.. we must take it as our destiny le, if it doesn't turn out to be in our favour, DON't waste time whining away.. think of the next move.. cos even if we cry blood nothing is gonna change.. to those who have gotten their choice.. NEVER EVER REGRET it and NO TURNING back.

one love yá'all
deh, kamsahamida.

pRELiMs ah!

2007-05-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

never thought i would experience another prelim this time around.. hahaha.. it's the internal course tomorrow.. _ _"" nervous nia.. haha.. C&C ..command and conquer.. command my limbs.. conquer my FEAR..well let's pray 4 hours with my dad today pays off.. it's so fun just to drive on empty roads nearby new housing estates...haha..today ..i drove up to our common training ground.. and with a suprise.. the police was in the shades and their car was parked under a tree..and i had to drive past them .. thank god it was just smooth ..acted normal only.. and my dad even winded his window down and said' ''good afternoon , encik'' ..and i waved along.. they just looked blur.. either they were nervous that we caught them slacking or they were more focussed in disclosing smuggling activities..lol..

-phew- that was absolutely close.

we went to a hidden area and we swapped place and headed home fast.. haha.. =] .. so nice to have a fond memory of driving with my daddy..

have started reading some articles with regards to accountancy ..better read up abit ba.. since i have no background knowledge on it.. must be a MUGGER..k that's a singaporean term ya.. which simply means.. HARDCORE MEMORISATION AND 'REGURGITATION' of facts. rote learning lah.. hehe..

ah.. have planned a trip to aussie to see my oldest buddies ,LEON and ADRIAN. man, had they left me at the average age of 14 .. missed them so much. and now , the final hurdle: MUMMY's blessing. mummy ain't convinced of me enjoying myself there ALONE...and she lamented that the trip to PERTH only is SO NOT WORTH while.. oh dear

reflection time
have you ever experience going against ur parents' words.. k .i don't mean talking back to them.. more like not heeding their advice.. and when u do so.. it resulted into you regretting your acts and the words like ,'' see i told you so..why never listen!?'' just served as the final uppercut that knocked you down flat. haha, to me , MY parents' blessings are A MUST in anything i do.. i guess i was mentally trained that way.. even though i am confident with my actions and they disapprove.. my confidence glass would shatter and i cannot focus well.. ah.. how how!!?? i need to PLAN my trip nicely and present to her my full-fledged proposal nia. haha.'' gotta seal the deal with my mother''.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

working out!

2007-05-06T00:32:00.000+08:00

okays peeps.. kiwana boy enrolled himself to 1 mth of gym... located in town.. muahaha.. RM70 per mth.. unlimited entries.. well..it's that time where i get serious.. i wun really restrict myself in terms of diet.. i'm more interested in building my strength so i can be on par with my future uni guy mates.. haha.. if i have a nice bod.. thats secondary.. my main aim.. is to be strong ... =] but obviously, i ain't gonna stuff myself with KFC, pizza hut or oily mee gorengs everyday lah.. i just follow my mum's cooking.. my mum has been under a lot of stress these past few days.. stressed out because of me as she tries to figure out what are the next dishes to prepare.. haha.
she would always ask me, '' son, whaddya wanna eat later..." and i would just reply.. ''anything lah ,mi." instantaneously , she would just slap her forehead and whine in despair.. ambiguity kills. well, my good intention of not troubling her to prepare special food eventually turned its back against my mother.. SORRY MI!

all right just came back from 2 gruelling hours of badminton.. ah..the skills aren't there. i gotta pick it up.. smashing the shuttlecock and playing it by the net are the most fun part in badminton.. making dead/drop shots are cool too.. gotta perfect them all..hehe..

reflection time:
don't say others when you don't know yourself yet.

okay my version of this reflection came from my handphone.i was browsing through my handphone's functions and i was hooked up by this voice recorder. so i tried recording my own voice.. hoho. to my dismay, i couldn't believe that the recording was my voice. ain't sure bout' you guys but.. this is actually my 1st time coming to realise that how others hear me and how i listen to my own voice differ.. hehe.. it's a suprise lah.. do you feel the same as me.. i was like

'' eh , why my voice like that one?'' ...hahaha.. but it didn't matter... i took a few more examples .. and they were all the same.. sample means and variance are the same.. so probability that voice has been altered = 0 ... prob that it's my natural voice = 1.. sighx. then i was a bit more adventurous..i opened my 'i-tunes' library and listened thru ma earphones and started to sing along and recorded my voice SIMULTANEOUSLY.. it was very entertaining.. i named tht whole session ''VOICE IDOL'' where i judged my own voice.. when i pressed play on my voice recorder.. i instantly laughed at myself singing out of tune time to time.. then i realised .. i did not sang out of tune in the first place.. hoho.. irony started settling in.. then i repeated a few more times.. hehe.. they turned to be awful without fail.. hehe.. and NOW i understand the whole concept of people crying when they get criticised..

to me, the reason would be this.. when you sing , you assumed some parts to be all right but somehow , it would not appear to be gd.and when people criticise..denial and crashing of one self's esteem sink in..ah..there's where HURT comes along and finally the tears because it's on national television. okay this sounds like ''duh?!'' but i tried it and i know how it feels like to listen to ur own recorded voice.. haha..perhaps you guys shd participate in voice idol.. IDOLISE YOUR VOICE . haha, this is just my view lah k! but the whole process is fun.. which is why singing is a talent..not everyone is born to sing.. BUT HEY HEY? that doesn't mean i have stopped singing in the showers..gotta let my soul flow and groove to my tune. haha..it must have been ear-aching for my sis and my sis-in-law to be listening to my songs from the shower room.. SORRY ya? my bad..

all ryt.. this is one perfect example of my reflection. kiwana boy is now a lil more matured in judging people in terms of singing and understands why some ppl just laugh or close their ears when they hear me sing. =] ..it's for the fun for it lah huh.. no hard feelings.

my grammar is RUINED. noooooooo....anyways,
tomorrow.. i shall learn driving with my dad... gotta be a JELLY FISH . till then , take care.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

relax lah boy. steady ...steady.. okay press the brake.

2007-05-04T10:44:00.000+08:00

7.20 am .. i woke up and was brought to the driving examination centre.. where i get to practice all the exam courses for like 2 hours.. its SO NICE.. get to play with the speed.. reverse parking .. making 3 point parking .moving up a slope.. over and over again.. without my instructor being around. obviously, he went to settle some admin stuffs for his other students and took a break with his other colleagues.. but that's fine with me.. aight.. hahaha.. i'm starting to get the hang of driving. today i'm proud of myself.. why ? because my engine did not die in the middle of the road.. or in proper english.. spontaneously stopped working which is kinda embarassing sometimes.. cos the drivers behind you will just HON u ...till u get the car started again.. *lol* but my instructor told me that i'm pretty STIFF sia.everytime , he realised that i was pretty tensed holding the stering. aihz.. gotta be like a jelly FISH ..jellyfish!.. my motto now:

' RELAX MY MIND AND LET MY CONCEPTS BE FREE.. as I'M ROLLING TO THE SOUND of my ENGINE.'

last night i was checking out my friendster.. i have come to realise that friendster has become a medium for people to look out at their friends' friends rather than keeping in touch with their PRIMARY friends.. haha.. this is really what i call NETWORKING .. blahs.. put simply.. they are just on the look out for good looking people.. there are also people who just add new photos.. of themselves. with self potrait images.. act cute here and there.. act glamorous. act PRETTY. but hey , some aRE photogenic i gotta tell you.. and I MYSELF decide to find people that i knew since i was 13.. haha, back at those time, i only met girls when i attended tuition.. yalah, at such a RAW age... my peeps and i are sure shy into talking to girls.. haha. but that ain't the point.. well, in tuition classes, we boys had never fail to pull stunts to add spice to the class, tease our friends with other girls.. and all, and we pretty know everyone in the class well by the end of 1 month.. i used to know this girl.. hey hey .. this aint no puppy love confession k.. haha.. she would always appear to be self conscious with her clique..and has a bit of an attitude problem.. yah..we attended tuition for 3 years. and since i left for singapore at the age of 16 ..we lost contact.. okays here is where friendster came in.. i checked her up thru my friends' friend and BOY , am i suprised to see her now.. haha. she kinda attractive.. but when i browsed at her photo gallery.. whoaa yeah.. she is super HOT.. with the make -up and the coloured lenses ENHANCING her to the JAP-look sia.. KAWAII..but instantly i slapped my forehead ... i couldnt take it actually and i just couldnt stop laughing.my best friend and i used to hate her so much and now , i kinda turning my back against my principles. hahaha..ANYWAYS, i realised it's purely a DECEPTION.. haha.. so that's where i cross-referrenced to my mum's words again..

'son, girls can be pretty on the outside but not on the inside"

TRUE ENOUGH , my senses knocked into my head again.. haha.. but it's very funny lah.. i ain't falling for her ba.. indubitably, some people are just born with the looks but once u really get to know the person , u'd rather not be attracted..muahaha.

going to friend's house soon and probably might go for a work out later on. i'm still looking forward to SPIDEY 3 .. haha.. tickets were fully booked for the past 2 days.. and i ain't going to take 1st row .. straining my neck and adjusting my eyes to the OVERWHELMING screen.. geez.. i wonder how people can really enjoy the 1st row.. it's not worth it at all.. blahs blahs..

aight, time for breakfast.
to those people who are still waiting for interviews and have gone for them, i pray nothing but the best of results for you peeps aight.. and let bygone be bygone k, so we can get the hell on ..

one love ya'all
deh,kamsahamida.

family MATTERS.

2007-05-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

ladies and gentlemen , kiwana boy did not take any siestas today.. that's treacherous.. and horrifying.. i suddenly feel incomplete.. but from the past experiences[ in my 4 years in singapore] , sleep is a MUST for me , no .. everyone living in singapore.. and when i get to slack right now at this very moment, i just think of sleep , sleep and sleep. and of cos , eating and surfing the internet too. regularly, i have my driving lessons too, well i am 80% there before my prelims for driving tests, just left with driving up a hill.. haha, that's gonna be a scary one indeed. i need to practice balance and coordination between my clutch and accelerator.. my action potential and synapses must be EFFICIENT.. my ion gate channels must be on par .. my.. what the hell.. i'm gonna be an accountant..shan't revisit the shadow of my past.. haha.. yes back to my point.. my life can only be summarised this way: eat , sleep, drive, tv, internet. tada.. a wholesome life.. a perfect slacker's life...

reflection time:
now, that actually brought me instant happiness.. i mean no qualms abt life..just spending my time away, catching up with tv shows, .. then again, there's this conscience intervention, i gotta reduce my EQ lah.. when i stare acrossed the ceiling of my room at night.. i start to contemplate.. pondering on my dad's advices , mummy's constant naggings to exercise..aihz..am i going to be a good human.. when i slack.. i do realise that i'm just burning my life away ... and instead of reading up on some articles related to accountancy, i watch MTV.. it's so inevitable that i'll regret this doing later on in life.. but then again, i worked hard last year.. let me slack ba.. that's the opposition's view..haiz..

in the same vein, whoa,sounds gp nia... eversince returning home, i've longed for company.. i mean friends and gatherings outside of my house . everytime , i would sms my friends for the next activity and all , dying for some excitement and my outings never fail in making me happy cos my cranky jovial boistreous peeps .. well, we grew since primary school..no doubt that we''ll be close..however, this thought crashed in TODAY!

'boy, have you been a good son?'

that was a question that put a full stop to my train of thoughts at tht point of time. i am a good son. naughty ,yes but not to the extent of talking back or smoking cigarettes and all.. respect is definitely there, but once again, the quality time spent with my parents are rather limited. i was pretty disturbed by this issue, cos ' back there in singapore , i would always call my parents to rant , to joke , to laugh abt anything with them.. knowing tht being at home is the best thing that can happen to me at tht time. and now, when i am home, i just...slack. oh man, what's into me... i would like to blame on my laziness too. my dad always asked me to walk with him in the evenings.. while my mum persisted me on going to our new house nearby ..to take a look at it..but i decline them slumberly..WHY ?? aihz.. do you understand how i feel now, perhaps the picture of this emotion is kinda vague..talked to my sis online, she was asking me whether i'm facing some teenage life crisis..where friends seem to be more important at this stage.. i couldn't answer myself.. i definitely love my parents.. but i ain't showing it the way it's suppose to be..sometimes when we have to compromise our 'wants' in order to make people happy.. no matter how bad /reluctant we are.. i like my mum's saying especially after she watched her favourite taiwanese HOKKIEN drama:

'' son, girlfriends many,wife divorce or pass away.. can marry another one but parents and siblings ,only ONE. remember that."

oh parents.. i must change , i have begun to do the dishes for the family , massaged my dad voluntarily ... he loves it .. i've been massaging eversince ummm.. 8? hahaha..ah i finally let this chunk flow out of my mind.ah, my grammar sux eh.. my past and present tenses are pretty much screwed.. but i am sure you guys can comprehend lah huh... well today's reflection is abt a boy who lived apart from his parents for 4 years.. it might not apply to you guys out there. .. but one thing's for sure.. my mum's saying still holds. dun let this mindset of ' you would only treasure them when they're gone ' rule our mind.

family MATTERS.

one love ya'all
deh, kamsahamida.

wHaT a FINALE.

2007-04-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

sleeping at 6 am and waking up at 7.50am was definitely a 'great' way to start off my final day in singapore .before that, i was watching korean shows and 2 movies; my girl and i and a millionaire's first love. haha , actually.. i just revisited a millionaire's first love.. cos' i wanted to watch something very sad.this movie is REALLY touching, it's the 3rd movie that made me cry in my entire life. yes people, kiwana boy cries. haha, come on.. everybody has a soft spot right. haha.. the other two movies that me cried were ' Jack Frost' and ' CLICK' . well, these movies made me cry because i usually put myself in their shoes 1st .. and being in tht situation i would feel depressed and emotional too.. so i feel for them 100% man.. haha.. 10 ten thumbs up for these 3 shows.. okay, enuff of entertainment.

waking up was just like conquering mount everest. with lazy genes inherited from...wait. created by myself and the strong bed-magnetism .. the process was absolutely..painful. opened my eye and i immediately closed it and hugged my bolster like there's no tmr. my bro came in and said.. ' eric, u want me to tah pau breakfast?' without hesistation . i SPRUNG up from my bed and rushed to him .. but eventually i declined the offer because it was already 8 am .. and there would be insufficient time to enjoy my breakfast.. took a quick bath and rushed to the MRT..

ah .. TRAVELLING from one end to the other.. was one of the most horrendous journey i ever had in life.. what made things worse was tht ... my mind and body were not working as one.. my eyes were sleepy but my mind detested them.. was not able to shut my mind and body thru out the whole 55 minutes .tummy was GROWLING and pleading ' NASI LEMAK ERIC, no no, hoTdog BUnS, noNO , laKSA..' ...aihs...to be struggling amidst the sea of biological dilemma.. it's some sort of punishment lah for sleeping so late.. NEVERTHE LESS .. My KOREAN shOWs were Worth it. like i blogged earlier., i MAXIMISED my speedy connection in SINGAPORE! yeah..

okay , reached boon lay on time, met my angklung friend jie ying and also my council friend xiu ming on the bus..i was PRACTICALLY alone .. both my friends had their own company.. but luckily jie ying and xiu ming allowed me to tag along ..so we were seated in the lecture hall. and the assoc. prof began his speech. bla bla bla .. ntu good...ntu established...unlike some other local universities...ntu no.3 nus no.14 ..ntu got this ..ntu got that.. ntu got...SO MANY THINGS that were so fascinating lah.. hahaha.. but it lasted for only ONE hour .. then proceeded for tea session. met up with MEISHAN and her canoeist friends! finally my classmate.. hahhaa..i was not alone.. so we chatted and boarded the bus to go for a tour ard .. updated her on so many things hehe..

H.O.W.E.V.E.R.
EVERYTHING ENDED AT 12pm.!!!!! this was not definitely something that i 'd have expected..imagine this boy ,who actually hesistated to come in the 1st place but got persuaded by his sister..[not blaming sister hor], who travelled all the way from OVERseas...came to ntu just to listen to 1 hour of information.. NOOOOOOOOOO.. i feel for this boy. do you?

thank god i came down a few days earlier and had my FUN time.. compensation at its best. hehe.. give and take lah huh.
later on i proceeded to JE and called ziping for a quick lunch at long johns.. haha ..had a nice tlak with her and rushed my way to JB ..

upon reaching home, had a simple dinner and threw myself to the hands of LAZINESS.. slept from 7.50pm all the way till 9.15 am .. woke up .. went downstairs to greet my parents and sister.. and out of the sudden , hynoptically went back to my slumberland and continued my sleep till 1245pm. THIS IS THE LIFE.. A GOOOOOOOOOOOOD life..
haha.. man, when am i ever gonna have the healthy lifestyle? slept again at 5pm and woke up at 8 pm just in time for dinner and desserts.. and now i am blogging...TIME FLIES..comfortably..
driving lessons shd resume tmr again .. haha..

oh ya, NUS letter finally came in , being offered.. accountancy too. but obviously, naturally, NTU is my choice ba. so now..i just laze around lah .. hahaha.. trying to figure out how to conquer this lazy disease in me.. trying to.. hmmx[=P]

spidey 3 is coming out sOOOn. YES! at the price of RM 6.00 ... it will definitely be a HIT!!! hahaha.. oh oh , gotta catch pirates of carribean 1 and 2 first ... cos the last one is coming too.. i can't miss out on all the gr8 movies at such AFFORDABLE price.. hehe.

one love ya'all .
deh, kamsahamida.

reFRESHing SinGApoRe!

2007-04-29T00:42:00.000+08:00

.oh HAI yo! 'touched down' in singapore at 12:47pm yesterday , 27th of april... haha well , nothing beats the stability of singapore and the efficiency of the public transports .. yeah .. missed the MRT and regular buses when i was back home. oh yah , about this blog skin , just decided to revamp my blog for once.. i remembered blogging my first entry saying tht i would stay simple and not to be too enthu abt beautifying my blog.. haha. ppl change lah k ..hehe. hope u guys love this background .. of course with the help of bee ..my 'sis' who helped me out with the HTML .. which is why u can see all the navigation bars being incomplete.. i would have to ask her how to fill up those bars again.. my tag board is currently available yah.. will be restoring one once i get back to SEREMBAN . thanks to veron who recommended me websites in search of blog skins.. haha =]

all right let's touch on friday's event .. COUNCIL reunion in NJC.. hahaha.. apparently.. i was late.. dismas and sum were late too.. met up with shu and her handsome.. oh i mean harold.. then waited for GRACE tay .. hahaha.. so ..after being late.. we were LEFT OUT of the introduction in sanctuary .thanks GRACE!!. hahaha..well, can't blame the councillors who came early lah.. hehe.. too bad .. i couldn't give a word or two to my GRAND juniors.. but that's not the pt... the crux of the reunion was more towards getting to know how others were doing.. their applications .. their temp. jobs.. ahhahaha. i think there were around 15 councillors who made it back.. but hey , at least there were ppl lah huh =].. chatted gossiped and took a look at our grand juniors packing and unpacking during 'assembly' .. reminiscing our time with our juniors... haha time flies that's for sure.. proceeded to KAP.. our usual hang out events after events.. hehehe.. it's nice lah .. just to see their faces again..

on saturday .. i spent half of my day watching anime and korean shows..they were absolutely entertaining .. watched the latest of NARUTO shippuuden .. so cool .. but it's only possible with the wireless broadband .. NOOOO!!! i so ..do not want to part with this NECESSITY .. 32.1kpbs will haunt me back again!!!argh. then i went out to meet my junior in orchard .PEOPLE: i would OFFICIALLY PROCLAIM that ORCHARD ROAD is filled with beauties.everywhere, anywhere, hot cute chubby adorable..u name it , girls are there. boy boy, singaporean guys: i envy u ppl ah..YET. i still need to have faith in my HOMELAND. they are just somewhere out there.. some where..lol..man, do i sound despo! ate pastamania and desserts in NYDC.. haha thumbs up for the goldmine CHEEEEEESECAKE and APPLE CRUMBLE.. yummy.. met up with my old hostelmates.. rudy and ferro..ilona and novi too.. haha.then we went to the arcade to play hockey pucks!!so FUN.. arcade's my passion man.. absolutely. =P .. haha.. was glad that i caught up with my junior.. gotta share so many stories with her .. well, we only met up after 3 mths of procrastination..dude.. more to come yah, junior!! i shall seek your approval . 8 years younger ah!!

okays , went to check my smu application.. sighs..the result : STILL BEING PROCESSED>. wth.. failed say failed lah.. but HECK IT .my DIVINE loyalty is for NTU lah.. respect to NTU .. for their efficiency and TEA SESSION. i am so looking forward to it.. which is like 9 hours away.. going to pack for home later..at least i know there are 2 njcians that i know who are going later..hehe..xiuming and jie ying.. all ryt .. rock on lah.. going to meet future prospective accountancy mates.

aight , there ain't no crap from my mind today. but i would like to share this interesting quote from a GUY's t-shirt i saw in NEW URBAN MALE. : ''if there are no boys in heaven, nobody is going''. INFER.

'deh, kamsahamida.' [nods]

a piece of my mind.

2007-04-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

eat sleep eat ...that is how aravin and i define a good life.. of cos , with no worries as well =] since all my applications have settled and i managed to secure a good place in NTU! =]
life has been very simple .. much simpler than my working days.. only thing is .. i am growing sideways.. NOOO!!! flabs and my tummy are bulging.. making me look like a pear! aihz..
haha.. mummy urged me to work out non-stop.. but my laziness just took control ba.

i need a run. one day .[grins]

anyways, i won't be staying in seremban from friday to sunday...instead i will be leaving for SINGAPORE once again.. my hoM..2nd home lah yah.. hehehe// attending some tea session in NTU on sunday.. so why waste the trip?!. friday would be the day where the old councillors reunite .. haha .. so looking forward to this day ... because last year.. MY CPU seniors did not come back... wah lao.. hahaha.. these few days .. i sound very very crappy.. so ... ME..which is actually. good in a way.. .i got back to my old self.. and bad in a sense that my mind aint shaping up .. sighs... i lost touch with the current affairs..again.

all i know was this pretty screwed up korean going around shooting 32 ppl and finally took his own life at VIRGINIA TECH located in blacksburg , USA. first and foremost, i would like to voice my condolences and deepest sympathies to all of the victims' family.. CNN news have been revolving over this massacre for days and it's time to move on.. this is really what i would like to call as fate.. it's so random , we will never know when such thing can occur.. just like MRT suicides in singapore.. wah .. i was just watching these two clips my techie friend sufyan sent me ..months ago... which just displayed how slumberly a person can just jump onto the tracks , acting way too normal before the deadly act.. SUICIDE and GENOCIDE sux .those taking PSYCHOLOGY .. future looks clear for you *winks* no offence there ah.. its a good note. but of course.. i not encouraging the rise in mental illness or disorders lah =P

nowadays when i switch on the tv, majority of the tv programmes would consist popular + REALITY TV show like american idol, the dance floor, project superstar and many more lah...to me it's definitely entertaining but like what some would say , it's fake. My brother once told me , SOME idol show ..which i can't say , pay ppl to become fans of the contestants.. wow.. haha.. it's all about business .. u gotta convince the viewers that these ppl are worth voting for .. can u believe that..man-made idol. yee...

the DANCE FLOOR.. was one show tht really stirred me up sia.. haha.. basically it's just a dance show where contestants battle it out through auditions and perform according to the theme of the week.. that, made me wanna laugh rather to appreciate their talent.. i mean come on, seriously, i don't expect breakdancers to do ballroom and vice versa.. for what we know, breakdancers need MORE of their muscle power while ballroom dancing focusses more on their FIERY routine steps.. and their 'gracefulness' in executing tht each vital step..each has special abilties in diff areas but as a result.. one will get eliminated due to unforced disadvantages.. HOHO.. so nice. kudos DANCE FLOOR..there was once in channel 5 .. where judges were displeased at the votings .. simply because the results were obviously based on popularity rather than performance.. then words which goes something like this : ' those ppl who voted and don't appreciate ur talent.. i think they are cheap. ' something like that lah.. then another judge , george was like ' you may be out but keep that spirit alive k ' [emotional song played] .. YADA YADA YADA.. fact is , you are out and start making some reality check ups man.. haha.. better obtain a degree 1st and start earning real cash. that's kiwana boy's advice for u .. the show itself is actually... absurd? haha .. i dunno lah .. that's my view.. my suggestion .. if you don't want talents to go to waste and avoid nerve-wrecking results.. stop the commercial sense for once and let the judges make the decisions.. they are wise enough. bias it may be .. but its much better than decisions made by voters. or else.. judge 70% fans 30% ... something like that.. dun create reality dramas that are embarassing , emotional yet entertaining. it's not pleasing to watch some how. agree?

enuff crap . now now.. once again i would like to wish those peeps that i treasure loads in singapore ,you know yourself..all the best once again for ur DEX test, DENT interview, MED interview, Double Degree Interview..TCM interview, uni scholar prog interview... i have FULL FAITH in ya! aja aja FIGHTING!!

my niece, learn the impulse reactions k.. its easy. revise every night. a psychologist in the making ah .. =]

pimp u stay strong as always. dun let insecurities ruin your mind and don't doubt urself k.

one love ya'all.one love.
kamsahamida. [nods]

sMeLLs like teEn sPiriT ..again!

2007-04-22T05:02:00.000+08:00

eeeeelllloooo..once again , i am able to blog in this 'progressing' town of mine , SEREMBAN. with a 32.1 kbps connection , nothing much can be done. it takes 5 minutes for a picture in friendster to be viewed, it takes 3 minutes for my friends to receive my message online via MSN which makes my conversation with them and myself sound a lil retarded, OH HOW I MISS MY WIRELESS BROADBAND in S I N G A P O R E!!!! haha, its 5.07am right now in my best friend's house, i have just gotten back from a cybercafe.. look at how late teenagers at my age go home these days..

all right let's talk about my general life in seremban. upon reaching home , the first event that took place was late night supper with ma peeps ..woohoo.. next we headed to our c ybercafe and DOTA-ed all night long .. hehe.. i kinda suck at this game.. and always been known to my gang as the noob one or else the FEEDER. '' our champion has FALLEN'' often rings in my mind .sighs... i gotta practice playing this game in my laptop !!!
if i'm not mistaken ,i have been playing games till the wee hours of the day for 5 straight days ... @@ .. super burnt out.. but it's okay.. being able to enjoy my company is something not worth missing at all.. never.. i realise how different the atmosphere is btw malaysia and singapore..
i feel so .. ME.. and very .. At home.. haha.. life is really free and easy here.. no worries no hassles..

moving on, DRIVING lessons.. whee!! all ryt .. this boy here is able to drive 70% within 2 hours of learning .. lacking the skills to park , to overtake , and to reverse only.. boy , i am SO looking forward to the next lessons.. once i take control of the car for real, i shan't be a burden to my parents no more.. ahhaa...and when the time is right,, i'll to drift for real.. yes .. gotta do it..

oh ya, my letter from NTU just came in 2 days back . haha. with luck , i managed to secure a place in Nanyang Business School pursuing accountancy! woOOhHOOo!! all right.. thank you GOD and to my one and only sister [real] SHERYLENE HEAH. for guiding me in the essay writings .. things might not have been the same without you. oh well , abt this , confirmation is only required from may 2nd onwards.. am still waiting for NUS and SMU..haha.. i can actually forego SMU after tht FUN interview..

to all my singaporean peeps[too many to name ba] , i MISS YOU GUYS aight .. haha .. though i am enjoying myself here , you guys will always have a place in my heart and mind too! might not be coming back anytime soon .. shd be only in late JULY if i'm not mistaken , which is just in time for ORIENTATION.talking abt my singaporean friends.. to those in line for mEDicine,double degree, teaching and other crucial interviews.. my FAITH and PRAYERS for you.. in this case , luck is no longer essential, its just the substance aight? haha..

good morning , good night![yawns]

23:01 . and its all over. i am a free MAN.

2007-04-16T00:58:00.000+08:00

23:01 . my final punch out in VENEZIA . i just had a mixed feeling after punching out. i will definitely miss my colleagues in the airport [yiwen,eugenia,caroline jie,helicia, yiting, derek, huishan, huili , yvonne, chase]..my compass pt partners[esther JIE, yew siong, kae ling] .. taka mates[ pei yoke, sophia, ah zi and sian lin] , tiong bahru , [aunty jean ].. yup !! ALL THE BEST TO ALL OF YOU .. though we never really hang out or talk much.. but working with you guys have definitely made a difference in my life.. all the gossips , the jokes, the bingo games [me and helicia], all the snatching of customers[kiasu sia] ,the adrenaline rush , the nonstop explosions of customers..=] ..my last two days were HECTIC and tiring .. on saturday .. my shop made 1150 dollars highest in venezia's airport's history .. i was proud to be one of the team on that day..yiwen my manager even congratulated me .. yay!! today was the 2nd highest which was 987 dollars.. kudos to eugenia ,caroline , yvonne and yiwen who had made this happen..

reflection time : i shall touch on my experience from work. Being in the service industry for 3 months, i had come across so many types of customers.. the picky ones, the jolly ones, the meticulous one , the 'just want to make your day miserable' ones.. the understanding ones, and many many more.. well , meeting such people had taught me one thing.. patience. no matter how they react or order us around , we always have to keep up with them, smile and always give our best. when they say you're in the wrong, don't waste time defending ourselves.. just serve them a new item.. and end off with a line'' have a nice day'' or CHEERS..=].. i might sound submissive.. but in such cases..making the customers happy would leave a much better impression rather than talking cock and bull story seeing who is right or wrong.. yup..seeing them happy when i serve ice creams or coffees just make my day instantly.. haha.. when we are impressed by someone's service , tell or praise their efforts sincerely.. service crews will be 101% more glad to hear that..apart from honesty , punctuality and being responsible in anything we do, we always have to take the initiative to make sure our stocks are sufficient and be on the ready to help out our other colleagues.. those in the f&b industry.. you would understand what i mean.. those going to take up a job in this sector.. just prepare your mind k..

ah yes.. enuff abt WORK!!! i am FWEE.. oh my, will i get used to my slack life right now? not touching foreign currencies? .. not scooping ice creams ?. not steaming the milk for capuccino?aihz.. im already feeling the effects of not working le... sighs.. anyways..im looking forward to meeting up with my niece , ziping , and my angklung friends again in sequence.. and coincidentally, every meeting takes place in BUGIS.. yes thank god. oh which means i gotta sleep early tonyt .. gotta start packing my stuff to go home which is on tuesday..

hmmx.. since i have stopped work ... i gotta spend some time thinking of things that i wanna buy for myself.. with my hard earned money.. i have some t shirts on my mind, a few pants, posters , perhaps a CRUMPLER bag.. hahaha .. i know i have like 7 bags at home.. aihz.. but i wanna get something that i can be proud of .. having lived a poor life[finance] .. i'm always calculative when it comes to expensive things ..except for food.. k for example.. a very nice shirt that costs 70 dollars .. first thing that comes to mind is this
" whoa, 70 dollars ah, how often would i wear this ?if i put in washing machine will it lose colour?70 dollars can buy 2 weeks of lunch .. " ya you know .. these kinda thoughts just come to mind.. aihz.. put simply i always convince myself that i can always use that 70 dollars for better things.. that's why u can see that i have poor fashion sense... i jz wear simple clothes.. and most of the time my brother's shirts.. hehe.. alot of my friend say i look like an uncle wearing all those checkered shirts, polo t shirts.. haha ..whatever lah.. i am jz the guy who emphasises on comfort over fashion.. perhaps , a very beautiful princess will come into my life and only she might be able to free me from this prison of simplicity.. we shall wait and see lah..

for nw , shall be paying my sis a few hundred dollars for the utilities and groceries for the house.. a way to repay my elder siblings for taking care of my handphone bills and lodging .. one love for my family.. another few hundred to cover my driving lessons.. hehe.. the rest i shall just save for future use

reflection time 2: this sunday afternoon , i was enjoying my economy rice with 1 cup of 'kopi ping' in the air conditioned kopitiam . from where i sat , i saw alot of families around me , but what caught my eyes were children playing gameboys , psp , and nintendo ds and children playing catching around the tables.. and the highlight . a mother scolding her child. firstly, seeing them holding these high tech interactive gadgets just amazes me .. oh my god.. such luxurious lives for these kids.. i dun even remember playing console games during my time.. alll i could remember vividly was to ride bicycles with my friends.. playing 'masak masak' a.k.a cooking with my cousins in the village, tossing marbles, playing MY BROTHER"s toys by the staircase..talking to myself during play and bath times.. wow.. i suddenly feel so weird.. yes i admit the age gap and the new ''techie' environment.. but even i myself dont play such cool console games NOW.. will these children enjoy the real playing games.. would they be forever be 'trapped' in that gaming world.. god bless them yah.. hopefully their CCAs will make a difference in their mentality..

another thing, the fact they are playing such gadgets tells me only two things.. is either they were rewarded for maybe, good results or plainly pampered.. my instincts are more inclined towards the latter.. i mean.. i don't envy these kids.. but of all things.. they get to play the new techie stuffs.. haha .. i fear that parents are really spoiling their children.. and children these days are getting much much more rebellious.. let's not talk abt singapore itself.. even my family's side in m'sia .. my nephews can be so rude that they can even scold my aunts stupid. the younger generation against my elderlies.. omg.. and at this particular food court today.. i saw a child talking back to his mum slumberly with that irritating ,'i know i am right ' kinda arrogant tone.. i mean that's absolutely unacceptable.. haha.. if my mum was there.. a tight slap will just do the trick. and if ever u rebel more , more slaps will just come .. this proportionality simply rox. haha..so i pondered, is it the child's personality or the parent''s upbringing.personality is influenced by the upbringing, peer attitude and atmosphere. it's not easy being a parent.. look at this dilemma, you treat your child nice, he /she might turn out nice, or else , eventually be bold enough to step over your head. if you are too strict with the child, the child will develop this restricted mindset and gradually build up a tensed rebellious feeling.. ah .. how did our parents do it.. my mum hits and disciplines me.. my dad just keeps out of it.. its a mother do it all affair in my case.. haha..should i be a good daddy or 'evil' daddy ?! haha.. klah i shall be more realistic.. let's find a gf 1st... talking too much crap le..

what a long entry today.. those who are still reading this.. hope you guys arent blur ya .. hehehe..good luck to those having their major events around the corner .. my pimp for his nationals.. the gals are at the other end of the rainbow yah.. MALAYSIA BOLEH k.. my buddies having their interviews to enter MEDICINE and school of economics.. all the best ya.. remember what is your passion.. those quitting their jobs soon... let's have a proper break k .. =] . money is not everything .. its the experience ... eh no lah.. ultimately it's the money lah yah.. lol.. singapore dollar 'wan sui wan wan sui' .. with the currency of 2.31 ..i'll be rich in m'sia . kamsahamida.

WORK sleep WORK!

2007-04-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

oh hai yo! back to blogging again. after that 9 hours of work , 5 hours of sleep and 6 hours of work again .. oh my god its so crazy that i have to take red bull in the evening.. the after effects of it is going to kill me as soon as i finish blogging this.. my body is actually 60% burnt out.. yet again, its a nice day working.. in the midnight shift.. i had 6 dollar worth of tips =] and later on i had 2 dollar tips in the evening shift.. covered my lunch and dinner le.. hehehe.. well like i said.. i gotta start spending wisely..

yup will be going back to m'sia on 17th of april.. can't wait to reunite with my homies.. man, i am so looking forward to drinking , driving , crapping, pranking .. gotta reignite the old me and regain my conscience as a MALAYSIAN .. haha.. but then again of cos i wun drink and drive lah yah.. i aint that bad boy after all..

well , 95% of my guy classmates are in the army serving their nation . one more to go which will be on the 27th april.. all the best to you , the last one! ahaha.. you know who you are. some being clerk , somebody becoming a pilot.. fwah.. someone going special tactics, another weapon specialist.. the other technician.. one more , officer cadet.. wah RESPECT RESPECT AND RESPECT lah to all these ppl..cos i know, they get paid monthly and i shall wait for a good treat from some of them.. hehe..

this week is gonna be very systematic ..i can foresee that .. eat sleep work .. the cycle repeats all the way till this sunday.. hahaha.. i am getting FATTER .. not fat.. cos i am already fat. diaoz..my sis in law say i fat..mummy aso says i fat .. dad and bro reminding me of heart attacks, cancer , high blood pressure.. worst of all GENETIC diabetes.. NOOOOOOO!!!! how how how... i can't just live on steamed vege and meat .. i need oil , i need salt , i need sugar.. i need fattening stuff!!!!
how can i eat to live when i have the instincts for the other way round.. arghs.. mummy tells me ,eric you havent been clamped down by these diseases , so you won't know.. once again those words were just enuff to terrify me. aihz.. looking at my daily lifestyle.. its reasonable to eat outside food eh cos no one is at home to cook for me.. *winks*

now come to think of it .. wouldnt i be suffering from my mum's 'insisted' diet for me when i go back?. oh no. okay , let's stay in singapore .. MAJULAH SINGAPURA, SAYA TAK NAK BALIK RUMAH. haha ... which just means .. onward singapore, i don't wish to go home.. i've always desired a good bod. dreaming is one thing , doing it is another thing.perhaps , i must motivate myself with something really worth betting my tears, blood and sweat on the line.. i must have the courage to make the 1st move..
let's take a look at this quote from my aussie malaysian buddy, leon lee, " determination is just like waking up from bed.. if u insist on rolling over on your bed , you will never wake up, but once you literally wake up[get out from bed] , everything will go back to normal. the hardest part is to bring yourself up from bed..' indeed leon , indeed. wise words. ahhahaha..to me lah at least . its a very simple yet thoughtful analogy.

kilos , i must shed. bod , i must achieve. WILL start once i return home. the word 'will' is so deceiving .. hehe.. oh its 2 am ryt now.. my tummy is grumbling..yet eating late supper instantly makes me fat.. what should i do?

"HELLO MAC DONALDs.one mc spicy meal pls! "
=D

cos i had a bad day.....i sang a sad song just to turn it around.

2007-04-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

ello . just felt like blogging one more time for today.
just got back from my outing with my angklung peeps.. had dinner at CHANGING appetites .. yummy.. chatting with these bunch of people is simply ..refreshing.. here , i mingled with ppl whom i have not met up for ages and talking about our work and teasing each other just brings back the old memories. =] i ate a HUGE burger with fries alongside that cost me 15 dollars..@@ hahaha.. if i convert to ringgit malaysia.. thats like omg.. 30+++ ringgit.. jialat .. that;s like 12 packs of chicken rice in msia.. oh my.6 days worth of meal.it's time to get back to my conversion senses.. back in those days.. a 3 ringgit meal was already considered expensive.. OUCH !!! i 've changed! mummy teach me to be thrifty again.. wah but then again , if i were to spend my money thriftly.. it would be bread and water all day.. NO!!!! cannot.. i shall insist on living this lifestyle..ahahaha.. look at what has singapore done to me..* bleahs*

reflection time:
*sighs* thats the only thing that i can do right now.. well like i mentioned on my previous entry.. let bygone be bygone.. yes i managed to do that.. but when i had a heart to heart talk with my sister again.. i felt guilty.. oh man.. is this really the course that i want? k i admit. i don't really know what i feel like doing.. all i know .. is that bio is NO NO ... sciences are basically gone from my world.. but i wouldnt mind physics .. =] ..

you know, after 19 years of my life... the phrase ," mother knows best " is always right for me.. my mum had completed GCE O level.. and stopped studying by then ..hearing her words of encouragement is just the best thing that can happen to me.. she might not know how to use the computer..but she knows when to say the right things.. today i told her abt my interview.. and we all laughed along..she said, ' aiyah eric, don't think about it so much. youngsters at your age also don't really know what they want in life. your interviewers will sure understand why you answer like that'. that line just cheered me instantly.. like the interview never took place. the funny thing is ... she did not know that most YOUngsters these days are already goal driven.. well at least in singapore..and for the past years when i have achieved poor results, instead of asking me to work harder , she just say this .. 'eric , move on ..sometimes results may not be that important lah yah.. you look at some successful people , they don't even have proper qualifications..who knows you might be one of them.' wah .. those were pure blissful words. no sarcasm neither reverse psychology intended.. it jz rings to me that i shd not let her down.. hehehe..here, mother knows best in comforting her child. i love you mummy.

my dad , firm yet jovial. man, his jokes are the classic jokes.i told him about my interview ..and his reply, " hahaha eric, you talk alot lah.. just like me . never mind lah' .but his words are for real. he just needs to say this to me, ' eric , today was yesterday's tommorrow. you know what THAT means right??''.. haha .. it sounds like the obvious right. but actually if i'm not mistaken it has a deeper meaning . goes to show that you should not procrastinate and you should accomplish the things that you have promised to do tomorrow.and that tomorrow comes, make sure its not a different story. this is one thing which i have failed to do ever since a young age.. now i have to find my trueself again and work towards my goals. i procrastinate till i forget to do important things .. and my dad will jz come nagging.. aihz. i gotta break the habit..dad, i love you too.
i need to know what i really want to do.. i mean .. applications have been sent in..but i need to take the initiative to understand what i am about to go thru for the next 3/4 years.. and also.. i gotta prepare myself for the fact that i might not even get my choices. in life we have to be prepared for the best and for the worst. gambatte.

for those who have been there cheering for that joker.. that joker is in tears, not of disappointment, but of joy.. knowing there is a bunch of people he could rely on to ENRICH his life. muahaha .. kamsahamida.

my line for today, ' it's good to move on , but did you learn anything from this experience? if you don't , you will forever remain idle and the biggest REGRET will take one step closer.'

okays, i shall continue a small part of my SASSY girl .. oh yah , according to my buddy ferro , the movie sassy girl had this guy acting 5 roles in the movie.. and viewers were actually encouraged to spot him ...and there was actually a reason for the girl to push the boy into the lake.. not a plain prank . woo.. so deep! i like. gotta find it out..
cya!

when nonsense met joker.

2007-04-09T13:12:00.000+08:00

one day , this young fine lad woke up , dressed up in his best clothes and walked out to take a bus , headed straight for his interview. in the bus , this joker , sat and pondered the points that he would like to convey during his interview. he was calm , not anxious at all. neither confident neither complacent. just plain blank and plain calm.

okay he reached the interview place met new people from different colleges. one from rj one from sa. very nice ppl to talked to. =].apparently both had 3as.. hahhaa.. that joker just kept quiet due to the inferiority complex. but joker introduced himself to them and chatted away to ease the tension and boy could he sense the deafening silence in the waiting room lah before that.. even the slightest fart can be heard .. so , one of them went in, and came out 15 mins later.. joker asked: 'hey so hows your interview? '.. she replied : well they didn't even asked me a single question......

[..................................................]
that came thru the joker's mind. must have left the RJ girl in awe too.
sa gal said: 'oh , they just asked me to sit down and asked what's my name'.

oh my G O D. GOD!!! 15 minutes about your name. interesting isnt she? must have taken the interviewers for a ride.. respect to the sa gal. soon joker was called in. there sitting in a room was a very beautiful 30+ lady and an aging man which he guessed was like the prof or associate prof..okays lets see what happened shall we.. this is a brief answer by the joker for the experts.we just observe the short and simple answers yah?

question: joker, why you want accountancy?
answer : because accountancy guarantees me a job upon graduation. and its a professional degree. not anyone can do it . plus , my focus would be job security.

question: yes, let's take a look at your choices , you put accountancy 1st choice but LAW 4th choice. both acc. and law are professional , have good job prospects too. but why acc?
[ suddenly , joker felt the threat there]
answer : i have a liking for maths and prefer logical approach . thus, the natural inclination for accountancy. plus, i don;t think i would excel in law because i know my abilities. just not for me.

[joker smiled and knew he lost points there.joker was honest yet degraded himself]

question: okay , joker, can you tell us more about something you are passionate in? it can be things that are not related to school..

[joker's'heart was thumping.. joker was never passsionate in anything..but only one thing]
answer : ARCADE.

[ ........................... @@]
answer: yes, i am very into arcade especially racing cars. i've spent years practising and though i spent lots of money, i felt it was worth it being able to show your skills to wow the public. now, i am moving into newer games as there are more challenges for me.
[joker felt so stupid and was on the verge of laughing.. it wasn't a lie.. but it wasn't a very mature approach]

question: yes joker, what do you do during your free time to ENRICH yourself?
joker said to his heart, " god, i shall not lie about this ''

answer : oh nothing much actually. i just put in my best efforts to keep in touch with my old friends be it secondary school or college friends. friends are not easy to find these days. to me, friends are there to hear your thoughts and they do share their own experiences and thru this , i get to know more things than b4 and have a rough overview on certain topics ' that is how i felt how i could enrich myself.

whoa. interviewers seemed please.. SEEMED. but joker knew something was wrong.

last question: is there any question that you would like to ask us?
answer : nope, not at all. [smiled] thank you so much.
- the end of a screwed interview-

joker went out of the room and lots of thing went thru his mind. what happened to the key points.. what was with that passion .. what was so enriching... ah .. it was just that moment joker felt that joker missed the cut.. but bottom line was still this.. joker did not put a fake upfront. joker was purely himself. spontaneous but no substance...

moral of the story : do not be too honest ! and when they asked you whether you have any questions to ask.. YOU ASK! haha.. die die must ask.. to show that you are inquisitive.

joker called a few friends of his and told them the interview .. and they all laughed .. joker was happy to hear them laugh.. =]
well, let bygone be bygone.. today joker presented himself 'pretty well' . go ARCADE!!

oh dear ladies and gentleman.. how do you feel after reading this story.. i felt so much for him..somehow this incident was so close to my heart. all my love goes out to this boy yah.. poor boy.. well, at least he was happy about it.. being EAU NATUREL..well, there you go smu, a joker for the day who just hangs out with friends and plays arcade and wish to pursue accountancy.

hehe, anyways .. life goes on yah .. its not the end of the world.. one consolation for today my money came in!! hit 800 this month ..whee.. goodie.. going out later to meet up with my angklung friends..its been ages since i last saw them ..meeting them at city hall =]

recently received my latest schedule for my final week.. let's take a look
tues: 10PM to 7AM
wed:6pm -11pm
thurs5pm-11pm
friday 3pm to 11pm
saturday 4pm to 11pm
sunday 3pm to 11pm

woohoo.. wat a great week lying ahead for me.. it is my last week anyways. lets make it a fruitful and an experience never to be forgotten.shall blog laters yah..now i shall be watching MY SASSY girl .

sMMOOOooTh OperAtor

2007-04-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

today , was a great day.. i'm referring to EASTER yah..haha.. not only the day is blessed my pay for today is also blessed.. i shd be looking forward to a 7.5 dollars per hour from 12am to 7 am ..hehehe.. that was the thing that kept me going during my midnite shift.. a motivation that is even stronger than caffeine.. hehe..i would like to say that everything was according to my flow.. at abt 4.30 am i was very hungry . had a lousy dinner [economy rice] .. hehe.. so i went to POLAR puffs and pastries (which was just right in front of my shop ) to take a look .. i decided to buy the LAST chicken pie.. hehe and guess what.. the sales lady gave it away to me for FWEEE!!! yay! such a nice lady.. with a condition that she jokingly made.. that i have to treat her back some ice cream when she comes to my job.. haha "no problemlah mak cik ..steady lah". then at 5.30 my tummy grumbled again.. craving for something nice.. and with the strong will to persevere ..my neighbour offered me KAYA toast ..omg .. a string of gd luck.. hehe. plus with cafe latte that i made for this australian lady.. i received tips like abt 1 dollar.. =] my shift just rox lah.. haha

in the evening . went to CHINATOWN to meet up with my 'family' . aight.. its just great to take a look at the surroundings of chinatown.. a sense of belonging just stirred up in me..goes to show that my chinese blood is jz shining well man. haha. went to fd street to enjoy tang yuen at ah balling shop!! so nice .. yup gotta admit that the peanut soup is YUMMY.. but i have to try almond milk soup one day.. then we proceeded to the BALCONY at heerens.. yeah yeah .. enjoyed the ambience .. sipping some cocktails, mocktails and ice moccha .. laid back.. woohoo.. lots of hot babes right there.. not only at the BALCONY but in orchard itself.. i think its just the HOT PEOPLE's day out ..thank you god for this pair of eyes that you have given..

yup one thing interesting about the BALCONY was the checking of ID. this time around my id was checked . haha .. the guy was not convinced at all till i had to remove my cap. well, apparently he said that i dun even look of age.. hahhaa.. spontaneously, those words made my day,goes to show that i dun look old.. but when i told that to my sister.. she said perhaps it implied that i don;t look mature enuff.. wahlao.. ahhaa... but it's all right.. my sister and i joke all the time.. we cool about it. but what matters is my OWN perception .. yay!

then the finale of the day.. ARCADE.. woohoo.. i played daytona and drifting was never as thrilling as today;s match.. raced with one 'hao lian' kia . this race was just about ego . haha.. in the end.. i successfully made a critical drift which just made him give up.. haha.. and the best part was to park my car just b4 the finishing line and took my leave without even completing the course.. hahaha.. sorry if this sounds egoistic yah. but my actions spoke louder than words.. lets celebrate shall we? =] its all thanks to my family support . you guys rock lah..

reflection time: from a young age , my mama always tell me to smile..and now whenever i look in the mirror .. i slowly realise her msg. whenever i look at my face without the smile .. one word comes to mind: ARROGANCE. argh.. such a blaspheme. but luckily i am not the guy who dislike smiling.. whenever i don't smile.. ppl will just jump to conclusion saying that i am either pissed or sad when on the other hand , i am feeling okay. my mummy says, eric when you don't smile, you're just inviting trouble and i always had the thought of a stick come whacking into my face.. haha.. i am who i am yah.. its actually a test to see who really judge me by the looks..hehe.. oh well, like i said let;s be grateful for who we are.

saturday and sunday will be training sessions for my interview . gotta read up!! but first im going to watch WINDSTRUCK. korean movie.
cheers!

wish i had a longer and bigger one..

2007-04-05T15:05:00.000+08:00

that's rightt people.. i am pretty uncomfortable about myself..being tall yet..aihz..still stuck with a small ..bed. its been 19 years sleeping in a single sized bed.. i dunno how you call it.. i think its the normal bed lah huh.. hehehe..i find myself in tight situation when i have less space to move about in bed .. eventually, i have to curl into the cooked shrimp position.. i mean its natural but perhaps thats why i feel aches all over my body these past 2 years.. i NEED A COMFORTABLE QUEEN size bed.. my bro and sis have their own queen sized bed.. unfortunately, my room can't fit one either.. double damage to me..i can't wait to go back to seremban to conquer my sis's old queen sized bed.. yesh!!!!

been reading the newspapers this afternoon and boy, it sure saturates the mind.. and i jz read the editions dated march 10,11 12 and 13.. plus i only read those that were insightful.. hehe .. things like PM ABE's visit to the shrine and his comments on the sex slave during the war crisis back in 1940s , i forego.too OUT OF MY LEAGUE. haha. reading the newspaper will at least take one hour for one segment of the paper of a day's edition.. hehe.. i'm still slow as i can't comprehend the expressions and bombastic words.. i jz try to capture the gist. chatting with my niece ryt now as i type. going to hit the papers again once i'm done with this entry... argh.. 6 more hours to my midnight shift.. no!!!

this is a nice quotation i read from the papers, ' LUCK FAVOURS THE PREPARED' . yup! totally agree with it.. it's a bit wrong to define luck that way because we know luck is random right? you never know when it is coming.. this is a small chunk from the article that i read and it goes,

" what we refer to as luck results from preparation and perspiration. Idle, unprepared minds usually don't recognise opportunity. Neither will a negative mind that automatically goes into reverse when an innovative idea is proposed. the lucky pay their dues."

haha.. this sounds very economics and business ryt.. but its a true fact in life..
k ..done with my sharing, back to the papers.

kdrama over! hello anime!

2007-04-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

yay! finally i am done with my latest k-drama , MY LOVELY SAMSOON. one word. FANTASTIC. yesh.. a drama which is not draggy .. mainly focussing about the true facts of love..but we do have to realise that this is just a show lah .. can't be too convinced by these dramas.. they are just meant to make one's heart content. when i tell my friends that i watch korean drama.. i receive MIXED reactions.. some will excitingly share their opinions on their idols or the drama itself.. some will just say that its gay to watch.. my niece said i was a lousy romantic.. haha.. in a way..to me , i enjoy watching these dramas not only because its the HOLIDAYS and they are useful for me to pass time.. they are just there to feed my emotions..=] well , perhaps its just because i'm single.. its just fun watching how lovers come together.. giving me inspirations and putting me in a state of anticipation? .. is that a ryt line?hmmx.. i think there is some grammar mistake there but you know what i mean.. dramas are there to set me thinking about my future love life..how would she be like? what would i do for her birthday and what should i do to make her happy.. ah.. you might think that i am thinking too far ahead but hey.. planning is gd .. ' if i fail to plan , i plan to fail.' agree? haha

yes.. as i was saying .. the drama is over.. ANIME butts in .. hahaha.. to think that i would get down to some serious work after my 16 hours drama..[sighx] i am going to follow the japanese version of ROMANCE OF THE THREE KINGDOM.. haha.. if i'm not mistaken this ROTK is a famous game in any arcade centres.. hehe.. i must read about this story when i have the chance to... BUT i know my priorities..my current top priority.. SMU INTERVIEW! .. received a call last fri abt my interview this coming monday .. [9th of april] .. omg.. they even need interview for admission.. i guess its really for the sake of sifting out the average and taking in the creme de la cremes in...aihz...i gotta start reading up about accountancy and update myself on CURRENT affairs just in case.. prepared a stack of newspapers..worth 2 weeks i think for tmr morning.. hehe.. shall be doing it the GP style once again.. its been a while since i had a proper interview.. the last one if i'm not mistaken is during my council term..aihz... i shall give my best.my brother once told me, " if you put in mediocre effort, just expect mediocre results' .. i keep tht phrase in mind kor... AJA ! FIGHTING!!

aihz.. in like 18 more hours ... i will be going to venezia doing my midnight shift.. 9 hours of 'sianness' .. the battle against my biological clock..fighting those sleepy eyes of mine.. cleaning the shop up at about 3 am.. wah kao.. nvm .. i will chat with my neighbour beside my stall.. she is is my 'da jie' .. giving treats like kaya toast and fishball noodle.. in the wee hours of the day.. haha.. okays i shall be looking forward to the midnight shift.

reflection time:
k this time i shall touch more on ppl relations rather than love lah k.. im not even attached and im talking abt love .. so 'wu liao'.yes yes.. white lies or false hope?? how often do we tell and give them respectively.. is it gd to be direct or beat around the bush to prevent someone's feelings from getting hurt. all my life .. i witnessed that both methods work .. hehe .. well it depends on how persuasive you are in telling them and whether the other party can move on fast? for those ppl who can't move on fast..i think its good to be direct .. wait a minute . it sounds wrong right? people who take longer time to recover , should be told off quickly.. that way ppl can spend more time healing.. the longer we lie , the harder the impact .. i understand that sometimes.. people will call u up one day telling their probs.. and MAJORITY which i believe , would prefer to be consoled than to receive another critic / a direct hit from you.. even i myself would like to hear comforting words.. but hey? are these consoling words really THAT necessary ... hehe.. maybe i'm insensitive ..but i focus more on the long run rather than cheering them up temporarily. consoling is a gd matter but as a friend we mz always set them in the right direction. guiding and encouraging them to stand up after their fall .. you gotta to be cruel to be kind..

why do i feel like i;m talking to a psychiatrist? must be the fact that i;m doing this at 1.30am .. going to bathe nw.. waking up early .. fresh and ready to hit the newspapers.. probably hang ard my KOPITIAM with my kayatoast and chatting away with old people .. lol..

sunday morning rain is falling.. i like that

2007-04-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

today was quite a good , relaxing day. woke up to meet up with my buddies for pool and a delightful sushi buffet. YUMMY. chatted about random stuffs..teasing here and there..went shopping and found some nice clothes.. ahaha.. bought one shirt with the words : WHERE MY BEACHES AT? those who can infer the real line .. good for you.. =) i am really fascinated with the suggestive words and pictures on the tshirts .. like, " SEXSI instead of pepsi in the pepsi logo.. or ORAL ME instead of ORAL B.. hehe the best that attracted my attention was this , " COMMA SUTRA" , which was commas placed at 'interesting positions' ./ hehehe.. gd investment yah.. but you gotta have massive confidence of wearing the shirt in public lah.. i must save alot of money for my new wardrobe.

right .. days seem to pass by with a blink of an eye.. and i have no regrets thus fafr.. knowing that i have completed all my applications , my heart is at ease and i'm just entertaining myself with k-drama and anime[files of young kindaichi] ... i can just watch without eating.. whoa.. thats some addiction i guess, a new form of dieting.. i realised how much i have missed during my secondary school and jc in singapore.. this is THE REAL HOLIDAY FOR ME .. and like i said..i;m loving it.

well i foresee that my uni batch [boys] who are much older than me.. will much MORE fitter than me .. and might have a high chance talkin only about NS.. aihz.. i'm already experiencing that with my guys outings.. hehe.. its gd to hear them describing their experience.. but sometimes.. i just get lost along the way.. i pray that my nxt coming batch would not be talking abt ns thru out the 3/4 years of their lives ..hahaha.. one of friend suggests me to get a gf .. haha. so i can jz devote my attention to her.. somehow i find some truth in that statement.. but .. love can''t be forced la yah.. let's just see whether my UNCLE PAUL's prediction is true...he once told me that university will be like a sea of fishes .. swimming randomly for me to pick...muahaha..thats according to his experience.. i doubt it 10%. i am yet to get a gf .. hehe.. anyone who knows any that suits me.. please recommend me yah..

reflection time:
love is something that changes a person's personality. u can be a crazy guy/gal on the outside..but when you're with that special someone, you just end up being mr romantic or miss shy. hehe that's love. when we are young .. affection is love , but as we grow older together , money will be the new love. yes..love is like a trade.. u sacrifiice your time with buddies for your personal time with ur loved one.. so its a give and take.. but there's a risk of losing friends along the way due to this move.. is it worth it? can u handle it? ..never make special moves on special days .. like confessions on vday..break up on ur lover's bday[of cos its just a suggestion lah] cos.if you were never meant to be for each other.. special days might appear painful for you next time.. or they might just be scars in ur memories which can't be erased..agree?
ppl say once we get attached, we might not appear to be as sweet as we used to be .. think about it yah? to me, its really relative..amongst my friends.. this statement appears to be 70% true only..=) a special friend once told me this, NEVER EVER USE THE WORD : always.it's a taboo in relationship. even when u're married.. this word seems to subject the person to a very huge responsibility.. it's like a chain bound to your feet.. look at these sentences.. : i will always wait for you no matter what.. i will always be there for you.. i will always this i will always that.. ah , at the spur of the moment , the other party may feel touched/ happy .. but in the long run .. the failure to keep to your mini promise will forever remain in the other party's mind.. good impressions last but negative ones are more severe.. remember that.. just try your best yah..

wah.. looks like i crapped lots abt love.. hopefully its not offensive to anyone out there reading this. just my sincere thoughts on this complexed feeling..

cheers!

spYwaRE, adWare, beWARE!!!

2007-03-31T01:47:00.000+08:00

TROJAN virus has been detected.[alarm buzzing] danger! please install one of the selected programs.. and the pop ups begin.. frustrating me with all the reminders.. aihz.. i'm so screwed.. looking out for a windows XP cd.. hope louis can find it.. hehe.. save cost on reformatting ..

today i deliberately took my time watching YOUNG AND DANGEROUS, a very classic HK gangster movie with 4 superstars acting in it.. apparently this movie has 5 episodes altogether..sweeeeet... its not draggy and it's really DA BOMB ..if you know what i'm saying.. i can proclaim that ekin cheng .. is the man for this role.. the looks .. the style.. ah.. he has it all.. i am sure girls at that time [around 1997] would go ga-ga over him .. oh yah, as i was saying.. took my time watching the movie ..till i have forgotten my time.. i knew i was going to be late for work.. starting at 3 and i pushed off at 220 to my bus stop.. thou tampines is like freaking near to the airport.. i had to take two buses..managed to dash thru .. and punched in at 3.03...phew..its late but wun be deducted ba..hahaha.. look at what movies can do to you.. once you watch you can never stop..

mei mei jaime smsed me abt hebe's birthday =) .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my HEBE!!! you ROX.. seLINA, your voice ROX.. ELLA>.... ummm.......[raises eyebrows]....errr....welll.... yah...... GO SH!...

work today was simply fantastic .. hit 800++ tonyt.. i was very very glad that i get to experience a 800++ night.. the adrenaline rush was simply amazing.. from cooking the waffle for about 3:45 ..doing cappuccino and latte in between the waiting time.. asking the next customers to wait.. looking at the waffle machine;s timing while steaming my milk to and fro.. seeing my waffle getting stucked to the pan.. having to scrape everything off ASAP and redo.. sighs.... then other customers just looking at you and placing their orders not giving a damn whether u're pre-occupied or not.. waH kao.. its unbelievable lah.. filled in my time sheet for the month of MARCH .. calculated and i expecting abt 750++ for this month.. but i realised i spent like abt 550 this month..wah.. i jz spent without proper plannings.. totally care free and its just like enjoying my hardwork for the 1st time.. this month was filled with outings and dinners.. yup $$ just flies .. haha..but it's worth it. = )

reflection time:
at this stage of my life.. i'm seriously sorting out .. k not sorting out lah.. seeking my true friends and buddies .. and as for mere acquaintances , i just keep them in mind.. i''m finding peeps that i can really share my probs with freely regardless of any topics..i;ve already have my school buddies in my hometown. they totally rock.. as for those in singapore.. i have some to rely on =) .. being a sociable person .. i guess having too many friends is actually not a good thing .. in a sense.. ur social network is wide.. yes.. good.. but the capability to keep up with them is another thing.. look at my friendster.. i have abt 330? friends.. but i barely keep in touch w 10 oni?
irony ryt.. i';m sure some of u are experiencing what im going thru ryt nw.. here, i would greatly emphasise on QUALITY over QUANTITY...yes sir. at least the buddies that i can rely on ..care and support me gr8ly..thank you ..

yay .. tmr is saturday and its an off day for me.. shall jz stay home and watch some cartoon... keep in touch with kid in me.. ehehe.. and prob send my dad's phone for repair later on..
hopefully, tmr is a gd day.

the bLiNDspOt.

2007-03-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

Oh NO !!!! i think i screwed my NTU scholarship application.... all this while i assumed that i shd fill the online form .. and jz submit my hardcopy of the appraisals.. till this very day when my wife called me.. telling me abt extra forms.. omg..coming to think of it .. when i had to fill in the additional form.. i couldnt put any of my m'sian records.. and i rushed putting in the details..
sighs.. i feel extremely sad..somehow.. my essays ..that i wrote ..and with some refining from my lovely sister would just go down the drain.. [sobs] .. the song i'm listening nw..just worsens my emotions ... super sadz.. i just pray that my essays play a more MAJOR role than my achievements ..if only i read the instructions properly.. arghx.

reflection time:
i must be grateful for who i am now..when i look at myself[physically and mentally].i tell myself this .. when it comes to the face.. tell, be grateful that you have a completely normal
face.. when u look at ur limbs , understand those without proper ones.. when u look at ur fats or flabs.. think abt those starving .. you are well fed but they are not.. we always crave for better things, yet often we often fail to see that there are many out there who are dying just to be in our state.. appreciate yourself..

when u fail to get an a but instead , a b.. tell urself that a b is a good grade and its better than a c.. hahaha..however,realistically and unfortunately, we will have a hard time accepting this fact because of the pressure to excel is always there to hound us..
i wanna live a simple life ba.. just embracing fate confidently and leave everything in the hands of destiny..
aight.. i shall sleeps nw..

shine me the light to my true self, show me some love aight?

piracy. good or bad?? of cos its GOo..BAD LAH!

2007-03-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

olas blog, today was kind of a fruitful day for me.. woke up at 10 plus .. watched death note 2: the last name.. a super nice movie . with a good twist at the end.. the writers are simply genius in their artwork producing such storyline. i bet the anime wud be much nicer.. haha.. i pity L .. shdnt have killed himself.. saddening sia..
haha.. after that .. i continued my search for my OST album for my girl online.. and F-I-N-A-L-Ly .. i gotten them.. yays.. after searching high and low for two weeks.. god has answered my prayers.. thanks for sharing at multiply.com my peeps.. one love and my deepest gratitude to those at multiply.com. they really made my day.. damn .. i sO HATE piracy.. 'hate' it man..
haha.. went to work .. as usual its just pure stoning , dying for customers.. and when its near closing time, a string of crowd will just pop their heads at my stall.. paying with COINS.. slowly seperating their coins: trying to get rid of every single one of them.. especially 5 cents.. ah.. such pain in the ass.. and we are not talking abt 1/2 dollars ..its like 6/7 dollars.. aihz.. this is my job..
other than that. life is perfect for today..=) been asking ppl to recommend me some nice souls to mix around with .. hehe .. but no positive replies yet..
well.. i still have my SMU essay to do.. why do i need the scholarship? that's the question.. easy as it may seem to be.. but being outstanding with an out-of-the blue answer will definitely earn a spot for the interview.. trying my utmost best to squeeze every single detail for my essay.. written the 1st draft le, and nw i shall revise it over and over again... hehe.. and after this SMU essay..i'm a free man again..free to watch my KIM SAM SOON drama again.. yays!

reflection time:
i often ask myself this.. how much do i play in other ppl's everyday lives.. i know there are some, whom i have been dedicated .. but they dun seem to appreciate it.. sighx... morally, we shd nt expect any returns after giving.. true, but is it wrong to demand some appreciation in my heart?.. of cos i wudnt go up to tht person and say,' eh , i care and do so many things for you, appreciate a bit leh'.. only fools do that yah.. hahah.. perhaps i might have blind spots .. failing to recognise that there are other ppl , who have noticed and acknowledged my presence and contributions.. to those ppl .. thank you. kamsahamida..yup.. as we grow older, we have to be more objective..[nods]...a little bit of love would just make my day.. and im still looking forward to it..

kiwana boY

ma first blog.

2007-03-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

yo! check the screen one two...one two..aight.. everything seems perfect. jolly me, this is my first blogging session. well, im gonna keep it simple.. as in the template itself. ain't gonna beautify it or 'chim'ify this blog with all those soothing /popular songs or videos.. no offence to those out there who had done such modifications.. hehe.. ur creativity i respect.. i jz dun have the ''tech'' spirit to do so..

hmmx.. basically, i shall just rant my daily life as much as possible .. tell some feelings of mine online.. just wanna start a habit of recording my life.. life may be short .. so i just wanna date every single event of my life yups.. my happiness and sorrow , i share them with you.

currently chatting with my niece ryt nw.. haha .. shall add her to my blog later..tomorrow , there's work from 3pm to 10 pm.. its supposedly an off day for me , but due to my colleague''s last minute problem..i had to cover her.. hehe.. anyways.. its a gd deed.. and it just simply means.. more $$.. muahaha...guess that my MARCH pay will be jz enuff to cover my daily travelling and eating expenses.. sighs.. thank god i saved lots from january and february.
hahaha..

just gonna spend like there's no tmr.. well you reap what you sow.. and yes sir, the fruits of labour is here to stay .. =) just planning on items that i wanna buy..
currently: a new wardrobe would be pretty gd.. but its like one shirt 30 bux.. then my money can burn in a sec lah.. haha.. i never dared to spend on clothes.. they just eat up money just like that..truthfully.. i dont shop for my clothes either.. my sister does it for me most of the time.. and as for home clothes ..i just take my bro''s ..darn lazy to buy myself new clothes.. very sayang eh... hehehe..

just finished telling bedtime stories to my niece.. and i shall embark on a journey to watch my k drama : MY LOVELY SAMSOON.. yes yes.. talking about k drama.. im dying to get hold of the soundtrack for MY GIRL .. hopefully, HMV will sell the CHINA version of it ..i'm gonna be an official k drama addict in this long holiday.. catching up with dramas that i've missed ever since i started studying..

watching all the lovey dovey scenes just made me more envious of couples out there.. i want attention too!!! haha.. desperate boy i am.. oh well.. like my mother and all the grandpas,grandmas, aunties and uncles would say.. 'your time will come'.. hmmx.. persevere la huh.. peservere..

UNI life is coming.. haha.. but sadly .. i might just play the low key .. aint gonna be loud anymore..lay back and just hit the books ..what if i really die a virgin.. haha.. told my mum abt it .. i asked her to arrange a marriage for me..she said no problem at all.. she happy .. i aso happy lah..=)

lately, i have been feeling the breeze of change infusing into my mind and soul.. seriously, i've sensed that i had become weirder in a sense that i can be the crazy boy i am ..and the other second i can just keep quiet without muttering anything to anyone even though i feel normal..perhaps its a sign to cut down on my words and let action speak louder than words..well..adulthood is just around the corner.. let nature takes its course..i jz pray for no alter-egoes to interfere in my life...
aight.. its getting late ryt nw..gonna watch my kim sam soon... epi 2..
kamsahamida.